5/ All this long speech just to say that now I will restart drawing and find a part-time job and maybe one day I will do something that I'm proud of but now the goal is to enjoy drawing and animating even though I'm I'm not good at it

4/ And in fact I don't enjoy drawing, not because I don't like the process but because I'm too focused on the quality and also because I'm too hard on myself

3/ I realised that the only reason I stopped drawing was because I never felt good enough (and it's true) but instead of trying to improve I decided to give up and to convince myself that I don't enjoy drawing

2/ Over 3 years I never really found something that interested me as much as 2D animation or illustration. I learned basic 3D modeling, 3D animation, 3D rigging, 3D compositing and even game dev but 2D was always in the back of my head