-axl rm peeps in every now and again. his rm acc is almost exclusively the mgni rm communication acc sometimes lmao. again it's sad to see the energy not returned but i know that he can't return the energy. mayb one day i don't fucking know Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha.

-that to affirm to myself that they really were friends that loved each other and i wasn't just making shit up in my head. at least not the base of it and lore fantasy shit is all my mind palace hehe. ofc nowadays i do sometimes wonder how in touch they stay with each other but from what i see-

(not red cat WHICH IS WHY IT'S SO CRINGE LMAOOOO) from when he came back from jp and he talks abt meeting axl's rm a bit and u can see him start cheesing so hard and he just calls him cute and endearing specifically says "i'm very endeared to him" or smth like that. it's so cute. sometimes i watch-

say what that is exactly just bc of superstition but y'know. it's been quite a while since everything so i wonder if axl will change how he'll approach miitopia now. heh. on a slightly related note i'm gonna admit to cringe rn. um. sometimes just to feel something i watch a vod from mgni's rm

it's so tiresome. it's all so tiresome. but i digress. at least i've let it all out now and can live in peace even for just a moment

"didn't show up for his bday" being slightly hyperbolic since he did pop up in the chat and rt the official twt post but the dude did not even tweet out an hbd or join the call in or even make a video like he said he would meanwhile he tweeted an hbd and commented on hb art for mgni AFTER HE LEFT

idk i just wish people would let things be. It Is What It Is. ik i shouldn't let it bother me but sometimes i be seeing Posts and i really wonder if the person even watches axl at all,,,,, like why would u call axl and alt a Happy Married Couple when axl didn't even show up for his bday like pls

like for me as a lotl it's obvs that axl loves hkka + rze + even shin! and alt loves jester + mchi tho i'm less sure bc i watch alt the least out of everyone soz. meanwhile it can take like months for axl to even mention alt in passing and it's likely going to be bc someone in chat brought him up,,

the perception of them being Super Best Friends and cemented it. and now like almost 2 years later (wtf) with barely anything from either them (especially axl let's not lie) it's like. lowk kinda tiring seeing ppl still push the Super Best Friends image on to them Ha Ha

but anyway. i think when the grads were fresh and the 3D debut jp arc was happening also being when shinyspicy was ~close isn't a coincidence right. like they were both licking their wounds from a very stressful situation and glad they didn't have to go through it alone + people seeing that rocketed

-when someone can't be there, and the same was true when mgvs had to go as well. gonna put the image of the magazine thing just for posterity but i think it's also important to Note that axl also said in the same interview that he most respects hard working ppl which is what he described mgni as so!

-he says he loves everyone in hq i think it was also really obvious he had his preferences, same going for alt as well (they both really liked mgni, lol) which is what i felt axl meant when he said what he said in the magazine interview from ages ago. alt is reliable bc he's always around to pick up

-but at the same time i feel ppl really heavily exaggerate how Special shinyspicy is? like when i say the following i mean it in the nicest way possible: there's a reason why the iconic trios with axl and alt were originally with someone else in hq instead of alt,, bc while i do believe axl when-

okay! so here's the thing: i have so many. hm. Feelings surrounding the graduations of '23 but one of the things that i have very complicated emotions around is how it affected how people see shinyspicy. i mean ofc since it's the only unit of hq now it would naturally put more positive focus on it-

buuuuut i should sleep!!!!!! i really should!!!!!!!! goodbye

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idk i got summoned from sleep with the compulsion to tweet my little Toxica thoughts but twitters down so sky will have to do. hello. here is rot13 for pl and me complaining: