present!

never thought of myself as someone who has anything especially important/unique to say, but i think that might be a self esteem issue because if someone i loved said that to me i would be so sad. like everything u say is important to me dont talk about my friend like that

for as long as i can remember ive had a sense that im going to be a really big deal one day and ive never really known how to feel about it

i miss driving around in the august heat and practically living out of my car

melancholic silence, but it just made me smile (and tear up a bit). i like this coffee shop a lot

smelled exactly the same, air dusty and clean, unscented hand soap that somehow still had s very distinct smell, french doors and long walls filled entirely with windows from a time before electricity and ac. usually such a shocking reminder of that time in my childhood would startle me into a-

mansions (or at least what i thought were mansions as a kid, theyre really just your run of the mill big old houses) with kitchens packed full of whole foods brand snacks and anthropology doorknobs. all of the people on their street were friends and i had been inside many of their houses, they all-

two kids came in with their grandpa who’s one of our regulars and half blind. i dont know if its their detergent or their shampoo but it was a scent so nostalgic i had run my hands under cold water. again i was reminded of my childhood best friends house, her whole street lined with 100yr old-

13 year old selfs favorite places in the world (the coffee shop i work at is attached to a plant nursery that my lifelong friend zoes parents have owned our whole lives. in middle school we would go there on weekends with our friends and take pictures with the flowers and kiss boys under the gazebo)

its so awesome being reminded how much i love being alive especially in periods of my life where im feeling especially trapped and helpless. like this morning i was working at the coffee shop and the air smelled like my childhood bffs house and i realized i had somehow ended up working at one of my-

miss her