i just never thought i'd get to a point like this. i have been struggling with ocd and health issues and self hate for so long that i never thought i'd just have a day this nice, that i'd get to be loved and treated like this. maybe i can have a life, even with everything terrible that goes on

and while we're on this topic what the hell is up with announcing games like 3 years before they're even gonna release! shareholder shit i guess? if the game requires that much work id rather them extend the release date and announce later rather than requiring crunch

oh how right i was!! so much change and letting go of things this year. and in doing so i made space for so much good. so much healing so many beautiful people so many experiences

and most of my family lives farther away so i can't rly buy household stuff cause i have no idea what they do or don't have, or what kind of space they have for stuff

st louis cemetery by alkemia & during the rain by solstice scents are insane for this btw. gaea by alkemia is also good, like really really good wet earth, but the smell fades within the hour unfortunately

i dont like being an elitist/purist about it but like, you dont have complex puzzles, you dont have inventory management, you dont have real backtracking, you barely even have a horror atmosphere, whats even the POINT !!!!!!! STOP SAYING YOURE LIKE RESIDENT EVIL!!! YOURE NOTHING LIKE HER

sucks that I wasted half my twenties being convinced that this person was a saint for loving me; it wasn't even a romantic relationship and I was still constantly made aware what a chore it was to love me. was stuck inside my house for so long too, and was convinced it was the best I could get

will never forget being told that I was like a burning house and that they got burns every time they tried to go in to help. I was so convinced it was evil for me to want to be helped and loved after that. its so obviously malicious in hindsight, but I hated myself too much to see it at the time

like yea, some women can be mean, and they might be mean in a different way than men. but why act like men aren't often terrible and rude too, in addition to sometimes being violent and predatory. if ur an adult and still believe All Women Are Bitches then it's probably just because you're annoying

i Loveeeeee my welly b though its like the secret missing piece to making sure that you get to remain a human while on zoloft

the feeling of being so engaged with a book that hours fly by is one of joy and amazement, but the feeling of being sucked into the internet for hours on end is rarely a good one. the moments of enrichment seem to be the exception more than the rule, the rule being infinite scroll shortform content

there are enriching things online, there are good people i meet, interesting things i learn, amazing art i get to find out about and experience. but despite that, i can never shake the feeling that its overall dominance in not just my, but everyone's life is a blight on our souls and happiness

it really is so hard to stay offline when you don't have even the physical capacity to be active and out of the house too often. i am slowly getting better at that, but nevertheless it's the link to so many of my friends and it's so hard to discipline yourself to ONLY do that on your phone/pc