I feel so nakey on here. But I like it better than the other app so naked I will be

I'm a multitude of things I won't post to the internet but to be frank I call my life partner my fatherhusband unironically and also specialize in erotic writing. I am also incapable of experiencing sexual attraction. It's a thing and it's fucking bananas and annoying as hell to explain

asking when it was my turn to find people hot. Sexy. Anything. And then I found a term that fit me until it was traumatized out of me. Making me wonder why, then, if I wasn't ace, did I feel so broken? When the fuck was it my turn??? It never was. And that's okay, as difficult as it is for me to say

And what I experienced was just as damaging as homophobia. Which isn't the point, really, but isn't it fucking hilarious how an entire group of bigots can singlehandedly create aphobia while claiming it just straight up isn't real? It's fucking insane to me looking back

it kept being that way, and it still is. And it's only now that I'm realizing as an adult, still trying so hard to embrace who I am instead of burying it, that I was right. I was a kid. And I was ace.

vague nonbinary asexual girl-liker than I did being forced to fit into a multitude of identities that never fit me right. And they never fit me right because I was never able to explain what made everything feel so fucking wrong with me. Because asexual was a dirty term, all of a sudden. And-

Bigots to the highest degree. And they made ME ashamed to be ace, and I believed that I got indoctrinated into a fucking cult, or something. Believed like a naive child that the asexual cult or whatever made me ashamed to be "wlw." Of course it didn't. In fact I felt more accepted as a 14 year old-

but mostly just made kids who felt it represented them feel like their identities didn't matter. It was all "the aces are grooming kids and sexualizing them by telling them its okay to be ace." It was never about us being LGBT or not that pissed me off, but just how fucking evil these people were.