It's in the middle of the night, but my mind doesn't really allow me to f-ing sleep. Every single fear and insecurity comes from the back of my mind. My loneliness, even so I have friends who love me and a family who's also does that. But than the wonderful thought of "maybe they all just pity me1/?

Ideas for tattoos for myself, mostly in no specific place:

Lugia either alone, with the whirl island/ water in the background, with some other Pokémon (like cyndaquil) or as a symbol, like in the beginning of Go, where some suggested team harmony will come as a new faction

There is an old saying in my country: A man should achieve 3 things in life: plant a tree, build a house and raise a family.
Role models nobody needs anymore besides, I kinda found it funny how my relation to that saying changed.
When I was a teen/beginning young adult I really wanted to do these1/2

When I was younger, I was proud that I didn't change. That I was someone who didn't change, a constant in a changing environment. I was proud of who I was and did not regret any decision I made.
But I changed. Like every person does, it's normal. But now I don't really know who I am. Or more 1/2

So I try to get into therapy. One of my problems is that I don't know the beginning of my depressed thoughts or the wish to see the reaper. It started so early (in primary school technically) that to remember the reason, the trauma, is beyond my memory. Now I'm walking to the village I was raised1/2

I think I will try and use this account for late night thoughts or something similar.
So to the few people who actually know me and who are reading this: I'm fine.