kyuu 🍊
@kyuujuuyon.bsky.social
Looking for the sunny world of the sixth to the ninth hour 🌞
(🔞 mostly kyuu musings, this is practically my journal desu~)
(🔞 mostly kyuu musings, this is practically my journal desu~)
I really don't want anything anymore.
I don't need to be happy. I wanna just be content.
I'm content with not being a burden.
I don't need to be happy. I wanna just be content.
I'm content with not being a burden.
January 7, 2026 at 12:47 PM
I really don't want anything anymore.
I don't need to be happy. I wanna just be content.
I'm content with not being a burden.
I don't need to be happy. I wanna just be content.
I'm content with not being a burden.
I wanna believe that there's a sunny world out there waiting for me.
But I really don't have much fight left in me.
I just want to sleep forever.
But I really don't have much fight left in me.
I just want to sleep forever.
January 7, 2026 at 11:32 AM
I wanna believe that there's a sunny world out there waiting for me.
But I really don't have much fight left in me.
I just want to sleep forever.
But I really don't have much fight left in me.
I just want to sleep forever.
No amount of medication can mask my sorrow. No amount of cigarettes can take away the pain. No amount of therapy can fix my shit!
It's all too expensive, I can't be a bother.
It's all too expensive, I can't be a bother.
January 7, 2026 at 11:28 AM
No amount of medication can mask my sorrow. No amount of cigarettes can take away the pain. No amount of therapy can fix my shit!
It's all too expensive, I can't be a bother.
It's all too expensive, I can't be a bother.
The next time I disappear, I should just keep quiet. I shouldn't whimper out a cry for help.
No one needs to see how pathetic I am. I need to keep the illusion. I have to maintain the optics my family has so very well taken care of.
Will anyone even notice?
No one needs to see how pathetic I am. I need to keep the illusion. I have to maintain the optics my family has so very well taken care of.
Will anyone even notice?
January 7, 2026 at 11:25 AM
The next time I disappear, I should just keep quiet. I shouldn't whimper out a cry for help.
No one needs to see how pathetic I am. I need to keep the illusion. I have to maintain the optics my family has so very well taken care of.
Will anyone even notice?
No one needs to see how pathetic I am. I need to keep the illusion. I have to maintain the optics my family has so very well taken care of.
Will anyone even notice?
Just having these thoughts is so fucking arrogant of me.
I should just shut up and go with the motions.
Keep trying to push myself to live the day-to-day. Keep convincing myself that I'm needed, that I'm helpful, that I matter somehow.
I should just shut up and go with the motions.
Keep trying to push myself to live the day-to-day. Keep convincing myself that I'm needed, that I'm helpful, that I matter somehow.
January 7, 2026 at 11:23 AM
Just having these thoughts is so fucking arrogant of me.
I should just shut up and go with the motions.
Keep trying to push myself to live the day-to-day. Keep convincing myself that I'm needed, that I'm helpful, that I matter somehow.
I should just shut up and go with the motions.
Keep trying to push myself to live the day-to-day. Keep convincing myself that I'm needed, that I'm helpful, that I matter somehow.
Show me the world where only I'm missing.
Would it be a better world? A happier world?
Would it be a better world? A happier world?
January 7, 2026 at 11:22 AM
Show me the world where only I'm missing.
Would it be a better world? A happier world?
Would it be a better world? A happier world?
Everything I've done, everything I've affected.
Surely, it'd all be the same.
I'm no one's anchor.
Surely, it'd all be the same.
I'm no one's anchor.
January 7, 2026 at 11:21 AM
Everything I've done, everything I've affected.
Surely, it'd all be the same.
I'm no one's anchor.
Surely, it'd all be the same.
I'm no one's anchor.
I'm all an actor, I'm treated just like a prop.
Why even keep me? Why even decide to have me?
I'm just a stain on the "family name". I bring shame to his name.
I doubt I'll amount to anything given my current state.
Why am I still alive?
I haven't done anything. I can't do anything.
Why even keep me? Why even decide to have me?
I'm just a stain on the "family name". I bring shame to his name.
I doubt I'll amount to anything given my current state.
Why am I still alive?
I haven't done anything. I can't do anything.
January 7, 2026 at 11:20 AM
I'm all an actor, I'm treated just like a prop.
Why even keep me? Why even decide to have me?
I'm just a stain on the "family name". I bring shame to his name.
I doubt I'll amount to anything given my current state.
Why am I still alive?
I haven't done anything. I can't do anything.
Why even keep me? Why even decide to have me?
I'm just a stain on the "family name". I bring shame to his name.
I doubt I'll amount to anything given my current state.
Why am I still alive?
I haven't done anything. I can't do anything.
I haven't been happy since he died. I'll never be that happy again.
I was ignorant, I was oblivious, I was content.
I was ignorant, I was oblivious, I was content.
January 7, 2026 at 11:19 AM
I haven't been happy since he died. I'll never be that happy again.
I was ignorant, I was oblivious, I was content.
I was ignorant, I was oblivious, I was content.
I'm not talented. I have no skills. I'm socially awkward.
I have nothing going for me other than being "too kind" or "too understanding".
I was a mistake to begin with, I wasn't wanted from the start.
I don't have much to give to this world, but it sure does like to keep on taking.
I have nothing going for me other than being "too kind" or "too understanding".
I was a mistake to begin with, I wasn't wanted from the start.
I don't have much to give to this world, but it sure does like to keep on taking.
January 7, 2026 at 11:15 AM
I'm not talented. I have no skills. I'm socially awkward.
I have nothing going for me other than being "too kind" or "too understanding".
I was a mistake to begin with, I wasn't wanted from the start.
I don't have much to give to this world, but it sure does like to keep on taking.
I have nothing going for me other than being "too kind" or "too understanding".
I was a mistake to begin with, I wasn't wanted from the start.
I don't have much to give to this world, but it sure does like to keep on taking.
Why do I bother?
I just wanna run and keep
on running.
I just wanna run and keep
on running.
January 7, 2026 at 11:12 AM
Why do I bother?
I just wanna run and keep
on running.
I just wanna run and keep
on running.
I'm losing it. It's all just for optics. My whole life is just for good looks and optics. LOL
January 7, 2026 at 11:06 AM
I'm losing it. It's all just for optics. My whole life is just for good looks and optics. LOL
I don't know what music to listen to. lol
December 23, 2025 at 6:24 PM
I don't know what music to listen to. lol
I feel so empty. lol
December 16, 2025 at 3:24 PM
I feel so empty. lol
I can't seriously be this pathetic, right..?
Crying over something silly like that...
Crying over something silly like that...
November 21, 2025 at 8:58 AM
I can't seriously be this pathetic, right..?
Crying over something silly like that...
Crying over something silly like that...
Surprise, surprise! I still wanna end it all today. lol
Surprise, surprise! I wanna end it all today. lol
November 14, 2025 at 12:01 PM
Surprise, surprise! I still wanna end it all today. lol
Surprise, surprise! I wanna end it all today. lol
October 25, 2025 at 9:37 PM
Surprise, surprise! I wanna end it all today. lol
The thought of just XXX my neck keep popping into my head. It's been there all day.
I need help. lol
I need help. lol
September 24, 2025 at 3:49 PM
The thought of just XXX my neck keep popping into my head. It's been there all day.
I need help. lol
I need help. lol
Should've jerked off before work to make the day less excruciatingly painful.
September 17, 2025 at 1:39 PM
Should've jerked off before work to make the day less excruciatingly painful.
I wanna end it all. lol
September 17, 2025 at 8:27 AM
I wanna end it all. lol
Not a bad day at all!
August 29, 2025 at 4:49 AM
Not a bad day at all!
Look to your left, look to your right.
Is there anyone there that can save me?
Is there anyone there that can save me?
August 26, 2025 at 11:52 AM
Look to your left, look to your right.
Is there anyone there that can save me?
Is there anyone there that can save me?
I feel like I've lost touch with myself, with everything that's happened in the last 6 years. It all blends together, it's all a mess.
I'm living the life of different color paint mixed together on a wrinkly old sheet of paper. Just a greenish-brown mess. Not at all pleasing to look at.
I'm living the life of different color paint mixed together on a wrinkly old sheet of paper. Just a greenish-brown mess. Not at all pleasing to look at.
August 26, 2025 at 11:49 AM
I feel like I've lost touch with myself, with everything that's happened in the last 6 years. It all blends together, it's all a mess.
I'm living the life of different color paint mixed together on a wrinkly old sheet of paper. Just a greenish-brown mess. Not at all pleasing to look at.
I'm living the life of different color paint mixed together on a wrinkly old sheet of paper. Just a greenish-brown mess. Not at all pleasing to look at.
What am I passionate about? I see all these people I know. They're passionate about something—somethings.
But what am I passionate about? I've thought about it a lot these past few days. What I've answered to this question to myself before, was helping other people.
But what am I passionate about? I've thought about it a lot these past few days. What I've answered to this question to myself before, was helping other people.
August 26, 2025 at 11:46 AM
What am I passionate about? I see all these people I know. They're passionate about something—somethings.
But what am I passionate about? I've thought about it a lot these past few days. What I've answered to this question to myself before, was helping other people.
But what am I passionate about? I've thought about it a lot these past few days. What I've answered to this question to myself before, was helping other people.