how it feels sometimes

im actually nervous just thinking about it
i WANT to share it but i'll get so scared about any reaction

yes im frighten that people will think "he would not fucking say/do that" but then again what the hell can i do if someone praises my work

ohh woe is me

goodnessss the fic ive been working on is almost finished^^

when im done I'll revise it over n over till i can read it without thinking negatively after sharing it. thinking about posting it on ao3 with my user or something, but maybe i might put it under an orphan account

i wish i was wanted more. of course im wanted because i can draw and play with some friends but i wish i was like... wanted as in a "i wanna get to know you" way.

i dont mind the small attention online but i hope something like that happens in real life.

my friggin "for you" thing on this site is giving me posts from people i follow on main but like... the post was made 7 months ago 😭

kind of want to open requests to draw but fear the doodle wont meet the requester's expectations

really wishing for something different to happen. i cant reach out for anything, but i still cling onto that small hope. doesnt give me any good, but its all i can do

been playing kirby a lot recently i forgot how much i used to love kirby as a kid. never got to play most of the kirby games i wanted tho. trying to get return to dream land deluxe but i dont know if i wanna spend my cash on that or pizza tower

sighh..... magolor or peppino decisions decisions.....

feel like i should be less... polite-like when i talk online.. i DO respect everyone i reply to but that doesnt FEEL like me you know?

IT HITS 2 AM AND THE IDEAS COME TO MIND I WANT TO WORK ON MY DAMN FANFIC AND SLEEP ARE YOU KIDDING ME

urgh i dont like how my posts feel more visible than on twt. i forget others can just find me by surprise

if priv accs were a thing here i would've made this mutuals only 😭

hellow everynyan