I cut myself but then when I put the scissors away I need more. I tried other ways I tried crying but not a tear came out. I tried eating less and now I don't want to eat at all. I need more reasons to keep my hoodie. no one should know. don't tell my bf don't tell friends and sis.

i need something sharp

playing with the flesh! nothing more ^^

When was the last time I needed help... a min? an hour? a day? a week, month, or year? I need to escape... to feel better...

I don't feel like doing anything right now

I don't deserve to be happy

im so done

I feel worse... the world is folding on me... now all I remember is the names people called me... it stains me... even if its a joke... why am I like this...
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why am I so sensitive...
why is this so hard...
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I don't...
I don't want to deal with this...
I cant wait for summer already...

It's just a mental breakdown it comes and goes...
It'll be gone soon

Would people forget about me if I was hurting?... I want to die but ☆I promised artsy...☆ I don't want to see her cry...

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What is up with my friend...
I don't want to be friends with her but she's one of the only friends out of 3...
Why can't I js cut myself alr...
☆I promised you artsy...☆
◇but I never promised that I wouldn't cut myself...◇

"I'm better off dead... who knows... maybe artsy will be happy without me..." would she? I feel worse everyday because of school and my own friends at school other than 2 of them...

Uh