languishing flower
@lajjavati.bsky.social
I am healthy, I am whole, and I am trying to have better impulse control.
i was watching one of those discipline videos this morning and... it felt so ai. the script felt ai. the written description felt ai. and this is pissing me off so badly because the advice is Good. seems solid, at least. crashing out so hard that i want to research this phenomenon.
January 31, 2026 at 5:08 AM
i was watching one of those discipline videos this morning and... it felt so ai. the script felt ai. the written description felt ai. and this is pissing me off so badly because the advice is Good. seems solid, at least. crashing out so hard that i want to research this phenomenon.
just saw an ad for beautiful gel pens on youtube - is stationary porn a thing - looked them up on amazon and they cost more than 3k - im outta here
January 27, 2026 at 7:46 PM
just saw an ad for beautiful gel pens on youtube - is stationary porn a thing - looked them up on amazon and they cost more than 3k - im outta here
friendly advice - do not put charanamrita on hair after shampooing it Will fuck up your mental peace
January 26, 2026 at 6:58 AM
friendly advice - do not put charanamrita on hair after shampooing it Will fuck up your mental peace
oh my fucking god i lost two bottles of whiskey - hid them in my room and forgot the locations fml
January 26, 2026 at 6:41 AM
oh my fucking god i lost two bottles of whiskey - hid them in my room and forgot the locations fml
i was promised chicken roast but noooooo it's chili fish and singaras
every single fucking time i look forward to something it gets fucked up
every single fucking time i look forward to something it gets fucked up
January 16, 2026 at 6:47 AM
i was promised chicken roast but noooooo it's chili fish and singaras
every single fucking time i look forward to something it gets fucked up
every single fucking time i look forward to something it gets fucked up
i want to cry fr - after everything i went through today - i come home and there's no chicken in the house
it's not like they're gearing up for mutton on sunday or some special chicken dish or anything i can look forward to as well - i really want to cry
fuck fish to hell and back
it's not like they're gearing up for mutton on sunday or some special chicken dish or anything i can look forward to as well - i really want to cry
fuck fish to hell and back
January 9, 2026 at 9:04 AM
i want to cry fr - after everything i went through today - i come home and there's no chicken in the house
it's not like they're gearing up for mutton on sunday or some special chicken dish or anything i can look forward to as well - i really want to cry
fuck fish to hell and back
it's not like they're gearing up for mutton on sunday or some special chicken dish or anything i can look forward to as well - i really want to cry
fuck fish to hell and back
bruh i also want custom 1-on-1 advice from the priest they've got in but nooooooo i think this whole thing's centred around emmy
January 2, 2026 at 5:39 AM
bruh i also want custom 1-on-1 advice from the priest they've got in but nooooooo i think this whole thing's centred around emmy
emmy found our parents' diary today which they'd written in while they'd been dating around 20 years ago - it's sweet, angsty, cringey but above all things im glad that they found each other and made their relationship work for so long.
from the entries, we saw that my dad's a hopeless romantic who
from the entries, we saw that my dad's a hopeless romantic who
December 22, 2025 at 10:50 AM
emmy found our parents' diary today which they'd written in while they'd been dating around 20 years ago - it's sweet, angsty, cringey but above all things im glad that they found each other and made their relationship work for so long.
from the entries, we saw that my dad's a hopeless romantic who
from the entries, we saw that my dad's a hopeless romantic who
fuck pride party i found fredric jameson's postmodernism
December 19, 2025 at 5:44 AM
fuck pride party i found fredric jameson's postmodernism
things i want to remember about sunday night:
- the nine shooting stars i saw without a doubt, winkers and streakers alike
- the way i slowly saw orion's belt, and then orion and betelgeuse in it, and sirius which is a part of canis major, and jupiter attended by castor and pollux
- spliff+brownie
- the nine shooting stars i saw without a doubt, winkers and streakers alike
- the way i slowly saw orion's belt, and then orion and betelgeuse in it, and sirius which is a part of canis major, and jupiter attended by castor and pollux
- spliff+brownie
December 16, 2025 at 8:45 AM
things i want to remember about sunday night:
- the nine shooting stars i saw without a doubt, winkers and streakers alike
- the way i slowly saw orion's belt, and then orion and betelgeuse in it, and sirius which is a part of canis major, and jupiter attended by castor and pollux
- spliff+brownie
- the nine shooting stars i saw without a doubt, winkers and streakers alike
- the way i slowly saw orion's belt, and then orion and betelgeuse in it, and sirius which is a part of canis major, and jupiter attended by castor and pollux
- spliff+brownie
the geminid meteor shower is supposed to peak tonight, so i'll be parking myself on the roof after midnight with a brownie and a spliff. wish me luck in seeing a hundred shooting stars tonight!
December 14, 2025 at 3:27 PM
the geminid meteor shower is supposed to peak tonight, so i'll be parking myself on the roof after midnight with a brownie and a spliff. wish me luck in seeing a hundred shooting stars tonight!
ooof so much has happened:
1. ended a 2-yr long relationship last month
2. passed my grade 5 violin exam
3. presented a paper on mata hari
4. cooked up a viable topic for a research project and sdg agreed to mentor me (in heaven)
5. almost got into a rebound situation (don't fuck your friends)
1. ended a 2-yr long relationship last month
2. passed my grade 5 violin exam
3. presented a paper on mata hari
4. cooked up a viable topic for a research project and sdg agreed to mentor me (in heaven)
5. almost got into a rebound situation (don't fuck your friends)
December 14, 2025 at 3:24 PM
ooof so much has happened:
1. ended a 2-yr long relationship last month
2. passed my grade 5 violin exam
3. presented a paper on mata hari
4. cooked up a viable topic for a research project and sdg agreed to mentor me (in heaven)
5. almost got into a rebound situation (don't fuck your friends)
1. ended a 2-yr long relationship last month
2. passed my grade 5 violin exam
3. presented a paper on mata hari
4. cooked up a viable topic for a research project and sdg agreed to mentor me (in heaven)
5. almost got into a rebound situation (don't fuck your friends)
need a drink (or several) to accompany the kind of songs im listening to
November 6, 2025 at 3:38 PM
need a drink (or several) to accompany the kind of songs im listening to
ate seaside crabs, drank beer, ate a slice of cake while listening to ambient techno
October 6, 2025 at 4:19 PM
ate seaside crabs, drank beer, ate a slice of cake while listening to ambient techno
what i'm craving to eat in this gloomy weather is bhetki maacher paturi
September 24, 2025 at 6:40 AM
what i'm craving to eat in this gloomy weather is bhetki maacher paturi
money i want money i want to earn so that i can move the fuck out and live freely
September 19, 2025 at 5:10 PM
money i want money i want to earn so that i can move the fuck out and live freely
this roll is unreasonably huge 😭😭😭
September 16, 2025 at 4:36 PM
this roll is unreasonably huge 😭😭😭
LMFAO IT'S SHEILA KI JAWANI NOW
it's that type of evening when the neighbouring para club blasts naagin dance on their speakers
September 16, 2025 at 4:08 PM
LMFAO IT'S SHEILA KI JAWANI NOW
ah, today's shaping up to be terrible - i still want to cry. why am i like this why am i like this i hate myself
September 16, 2025 at 3:06 PM
ah, today's shaping up to be terrible - i still want to cry. why am i like this why am i like this i hate myself
it's that type of evening when the neighbouring para club blasts naagin dance on their speakers
September 16, 2025 at 1:26 PM
it's that type of evening when the neighbouring para club blasts naagin dance on their speakers
crying in the metro again. i really do hate myself sometimes
September 16, 2025 at 8:57 AM
crying in the metro again. i really do hate myself sometimes
william s. burroughs making the most insane statements like how pimps always have a big dick and how gay people give him "the horrors" before going off and almost having sex with a gay man
September 16, 2025 at 5:33 AM
william s. burroughs making the most insane statements like how pimps always have a big dick and how gay people give him "the horrors" before going off and almost having sex with a gay man
here at my first research conference and my only companion is google gemini on my phone! and friends and family texting from whatsapp - but gods i wish someone was here QvQ
September 10, 2025 at 4:12 AM
here at my first research conference and my only companion is google gemini on my phone! and friends and family texting from whatsapp - but gods i wish someone was here QvQ
frantically sprinting for the tarot deck to ask if my good friends hate me is just typical form at this point, sigh
September 7, 2025 at 2:43 PM
frantically sprinting for the tarot deck to ask if my good friends hate me is just typical form at this point, sigh
wishlist: drinking a white russian
August 4, 2025 at 1:16 PM
wishlist: drinking a white russian