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This is the worst month of the year, and it's hard to manage being alone 40 hours a week. I've been trying. Despite the day in and day out nonsense, I've been trying incredibly hard.
This is the worst month of the year, and it's hard to manage being alone 40 hours a week. I've been trying. Despite the day in and day out nonsense, I've been trying incredibly hard.
December 23, 2025 at 4:51 AM
💥💥tw depression💥💥
This is the worst month of the year, and it's hard to manage being alone 40 hours a week. I've been trying. Despite the day in and day out nonsense, I've been trying incredibly hard.
This is the worst month of the year, and it's hard to manage being alone 40 hours a week. I've been trying. Despite the day in and day out nonsense, I've been trying incredibly hard.
anxiety attack. this is an anxiety attack. hello my old friend. could've chosen a better day for this.
December 18, 2025 at 5:34 AM
anxiety attack. this is an anxiety attack. hello my old friend. could've chosen a better day for this.
and I can't fucking sleep and I can't afford not to sleep
December 18, 2025 at 5:20 AM
and I can't fucking sleep and I can't afford not to sleep
all I can do is keep telling myself that the worst will be over in a week's time but it really is an advent calendar of torture
December 18, 2025 at 4:15 AM
all I can do is keep telling myself that the worst will be over in a week's time but it really is an advent calendar of torture
I hate being miserable all the time I hate being in heightened constant pain I hate how fake people are I hate how mean people are I hate how drained I feel and secluded and stressed it's just awful it feels so fucking bad
December 18, 2025 at 4:07 AM
I hate being miserable all the time I hate being in heightened constant pain I hate how fake people are I hate how mean people are I hate how drained I feel and secluded and stressed it's just awful it feels so fucking bad
this stupid fucking month needs to be over
December 18, 2025 at 4:02 AM
this stupid fucking month needs to be over
I'm doing my offhand browsing for places east again, but starting to generate plans beyond wishful thinking. quite exciting. and Certainly not brought about by how extremely awful this place is this Alone during this time of year.
its just incentive though, not the reason
its just incentive though, not the reason
December 3, 2025 at 9:12 PM
I'm doing my offhand browsing for places east again, but starting to generate plans beyond wishful thinking. quite exciting. and Certainly not brought about by how extremely awful this place is this Alone during this time of year.
its just incentive though, not the reason
its just incentive though, not the reason
crying myself to sleep feels like such a loser activity right now but I had such a hard week. I'm fucking exhausted
November 30, 2025 at 3:14 AM
crying myself to sleep feels like such a loser activity right now but I had such a hard week. I'm fucking exhausted
we were walking up a familiar busy street as the seasons were changing. I'd kept sight of you in your robin's-egg blue jacket and your flash of white hair. you were fixated so strongly on the breeze; you'd just had it done. "needs to be right for high tea," you'd said with a laugh once we caught up.
November 24, 2025 at 4:30 AM
we were walking up a familiar busy street as the seasons were changing. I'd kept sight of you in your robin's-egg blue jacket and your flash of white hair. you were fixated so strongly on the breeze; you'd just had it done. "needs to be right for high tea," you'd said with a laugh once we caught up.
one of my friends passed along a message today that was really belittling after I got my feelings hurt yesterday, and now I'm just like... man
she apologized, but I'm still like...... man
she apologized, but I'm still like...... man
November 19, 2025 at 8:41 PM
one of my friends passed along a message today that was really belittling after I got my feelings hurt yesterday, and now I'm just like... man
she apologized, but I'm still like...... man
she apologized, but I'm still like...... man
some christian racist came in here this morning and it took everything in me to be Calm and Collected while also being informative when what I really wanted to do was Not be Calm and Collected
November 19, 2025 at 3:50 PM
some christian racist came in here this morning and it took everything in me to be Calm and Collected while also being informative when what I really wanted to do was Not be Calm and Collected
one of my friends left me a voice message on discord because they knew I've been really stressed out about this trip coming up and that I've been going through it a little, and it was so encouraging and so nice that I'm just sat here holding back tears on my lunch break
October 24, 2025 at 4:26 PM
one of my friends left me a voice message on discord because they knew I've been really stressed out about this trip coming up and that I've been going through it a little, and it was so encouraging and so nice that I'm just sat here holding back tears on my lunch break
was bitching about one of my customers, like you do. there's this woman who has always been nice, but I have never been able to stand her for no good reason. just really bad vibes beyond the veil. well! found out I'm justified!
October 7, 2025 at 9:57 PM
was bitching about one of my customers, like you do. there's this woman who has always been nice, but I have never been able to stand her for no good reason. just really bad vibes beyond the veil. well! found out I'm justified!
never thought I'd say this but I don't want to wfh tomorrow
I chose these dates. but The Pain over the past two days has been so severe that I have to brace myself whenever I need to move. doing that potentially on camera sounds like a nightmare.
I chose these dates. but The Pain over the past two days has been so severe that I have to brace myself whenever I need to move. doing that potentially on camera sounds like a nightmare.
October 1, 2025 at 3:56 AM
never thought I'd say this but I don't want to wfh tomorrow
I chose these dates. but The Pain over the past two days has been so severe that I have to brace myself whenever I need to move. doing that potentially on camera sounds like a nightmare.
I chose these dates. but The Pain over the past two days has been so severe that I have to brace myself whenever I need to move. doing that potentially on camera sounds like a nightmare.
10 years is enough time to forget a face without a momento, and enough time to recall spoken memories in your voice instead of theirs
but I can still hear him sing
but I can still hear him sing
September 29, 2025 at 1:02 PM
10 years is enough time to forget a face without a momento, and enough time to recall spoken memories in your voice instead of theirs
but I can still hear him sing
but I can still hear him sing
truly cursed that I've had decently good sleep hygiene the entire time I was on vacation and for a few weeks before that, and now I'm laying in bed entirely sleepless at almost 2:30 in the morning despite being in bed since 10:30... man
September 23, 2025 at 6:25 AM
truly cursed that I've had decently good sleep hygiene the entire time I was on vacation and for a few weeks before that, and now I'm laying in bed entirely sleepless at almost 2:30 in the morning despite being in bed since 10:30... man
it’s really strange having the outline of a time when something was meaningful but not the attachment or the feeling
August 8, 2025 at 3:18 PM
it’s really strange having the outline of a time when something was meaningful but not the attachment or the feeling
“wow, you look like shit. but you look less like shit than you did on monday. that’s good” my term is so funny lmao I really needed that honestly
July 30, 2025 at 6:44 PM
“wow, you look like shit. but you look less like shit than you did on monday. that’s good” my term is so funny lmao I really needed that honestly
or maybe it’s the close proximity of heavy triggers dummy
July 29, 2025 at 4:52 PM
or maybe it’s the close proximity of heavy triggers dummy
I miss when I felt fine and just had a series of emotional inconveniences to contend with and not whatever meltdown inducing survival mode bullshit is happening right now I really hate it
July 29, 2025 at 4:50 PM
I miss when I felt fine and just had a series of emotional inconveniences to contend with and not whatever meltdown inducing survival mode bullshit is happening right now I really hate it
I realized this morning that I didn’t want to leave my room due to the dread of the idea of being seen, so I Have to take my friend up for coffee today. I think I need to start masking regularly again or something because I don’t know how else to manage how awful my anxiety is getting
July 29, 2025 at 4:35 PM
I realized this morning that I didn’t want to leave my room due to the dread of the idea of being seen, so I Have to take my friend up for coffee today. I think I need to start masking regularly again or something because I don’t know how else to manage how awful my anxiety is getting
I may have only been able to fall asleep around 4:30 and have had to rely on micronaps to get some degree of rest until 6:30 (I know, abacus sleeping in) but.. at least this way I don’t have a choice but to take it easy today
July 28, 2025 at 12:23 PM
I may have only been able to fall asleep around 4:30 and have had to rely on micronaps to get some degree of rest until 6:30 (I know, abacus sleeping in) but.. at least this way I don’t have a choice but to take it easy today
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why is it now that everything is both coming together and falling apart.. mm. well. I guess that’s been the theme this year, really. but..
I got so triggered by a moment in a film that all I’ve been able to think about is how much I miss being able to.. give meaning to my complex feelings.
why is it now that everything is both coming together and falling apart.. mm. well. I guess that’s been the theme this year, really. but..
I got so triggered by a moment in a film that all I’ve been able to think about is how much I miss being able to.. give meaning to my complex feelings.
July 28, 2025 at 7:38 AM
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why is it now that everything is both coming together and falling apart.. mm. well. I guess that’s been the theme this year, really. but..
I got so triggered by a moment in a film that all I’ve been able to think about is how much I miss being able to.. give meaning to my complex feelings.
why is it now that everything is both coming together and falling apart.. mm. well. I guess that’s been the theme this year, really. but..
I got so triggered by a moment in a film that all I’ve been able to think about is how much I miss being able to.. give meaning to my complex feelings.
fuckingggggg good night
July 25, 2025 at 9:11 PM
fuckingggggg good night
I just want to go home and go to sleep
July 25, 2025 at 7:57 PM
I just want to go home and go to sleep