It's been a ride y'all and I am genuinely sorry for lashing out.

Literally this past few months:
*Victim rights agency reaches out during disability*
"You were a victim"
"Yeah, look at all this childhood abuse, experimental therapy bullshit, being assaulted at work..."
"No, something else this time"

Personally, I'm going back to being quiet online because of my health issues. I'm still available to talk through my boyfriend for anyone who wants to chew me out; I probably deserve it

Again sorry I haven't dealt with any of everything in my life well; but yeah, the above was part of why.
A Victim

I expected better protection from the community, and when I didn't get it, I did take it out on the wrong people because I felt betrayed in feeling that I was lied to about the community being safe.

Maybe that's my fault, I honestly don't know anymore. But that is why this type of work matters.

If I've ever hurt anyone I can't apologize enough.

But please, do hear out people; we don't all scream for help in the same way

I'm going through SSD/SSDI steps and going to be looking into a Victims Rights Advocate in conjunction with my current therapy

Appreciate those putting in the work on this.

Sorry for being an ass at times.

I'm working through shit still, found a good place in life, but I'm sadly afraid of my own anger and grief of what all I've already lost to continue to attempt being active online after everything.

Personally, I've been taken advantage of by too many in the community to feel comfortable within any longer and it causes me a ton of pain because I call furry home.

I do apologize for not handling the trauma well. And more importantly want to let people know I am trying, failing, but trying

I try to take note of that, but even I slip and have bad days; it's not an excuse, just what happens.

Because of that, I want to commend this work by @dogpatch.press and exposure and wish to express what the experience of what being near these people does and the trauma it alone causes

I'm not looking for forgiveness from anyone I yelled at; I am truly sorry and feel a lot of shame and guilt.

There's been a lot of damage to my brain due to disease, bad car accidents, and childhood abuse.

Mixed with PTSD and legit fear of people in the community I call home, it makes me volitile

But between that and feelings on pandemic management (concerns I still have), the whole scene started to trigger me.

I do apologize and want to commend the work done by Dogpatch here.

I hope we can all do better getting these people out, that's all I wanted in the end as it was so it could be safe

Furries didn't hold the line.

*throws a sandwich at their mom*

So next time you leave me for dead, take a minute to actually talk to me.

I might actually know what the fuck I'm doing.