and i am not the one nor am i the two. try jesus, don’t try me.

IT’S NEVER THE RIGHT TIME FOR ME TO BE UPSET. EVER. I CAN NEVER FEEL MY EMOTIONS. IT’S ALWAYS A PROBLEM OR A LATER REASON FOR HER TO SAY SHE HASN’T HAD TIME FOR HER TO RELEASE HER EMOTIONS. I GUESS I CANNOT FUCKING HAVE EMOTIONS THEN. FUCK OFF.

not to mention my entire apartment is basically a storm shelter. we can literally never tell when its raining unless its also windy at the same time and even then its difficult

will i ever leave? no bc i don’t give up on people until they show me they truly suck like genuinely are shitty. but goddamn this shit is hard when i also have autism & adhd and one singular thing that i forget or dont have the energy for sends her into a guilt spiral and she hates herself

LMFAOOOOOOOOO YOU A REAL ONEEEEE i fr was too high and irrational to address it last night, plus it was late, and then i didn’t wanna address it while everybody at work today you know? so it was like 2:45 today before i said shit 😭

false alarm it was just a bunch of wild coincidences but luckily i can talk to my partner about stuff so 🤧

i’m so sorry, i’m sending lots of love and hugs to you