Everything i do for myself, you get mad at...

being in mania for almost a year now has destroyed me..

I wish it was easier to deal with myself and my own emotions.

Growing up the way I did, never having a sounding board to bounce my feelings off of and avoiding therapy until 22 had made things much harder as well.
I'm just hoping I didn't fuck things up again

When we first got together, both of us despised doing this birthday thing. But I showed you that it can be nice to enjoy things together... when you didn't reciprocate, I stopped. Then you asked me why I stopped... but I didn't say.

I beg for input for your birthday. I shower you with gifts that I know you'll like, regardless of what you ask for. I push myself to do what I can to show you I love you. But 5 birthdays of mine in a row, with not even a "What do you want for your birthday" is so hard for me

I meant it when I said "Why don't you love me the way I love you"

I literally cannot handle this anymore. But nobody cares amyways...

I just want peace, comfort and sanity.
Why is that too much to ask for

Nobody in my life cares about me and it sucks so much... I need to move away and start over.

Learning to come to terms with the fact nobody has my back.

trying to view positive content

#parenting #nurture #love

In true American fashion I can’t afford to be emotional, I have to work and pretend it’ll be okay when it is certainly not. I’m hoping my art brings others a tiny bit of light in spite of what the next four years will bring. 🫂