@lonelytherapist.bsky.social
It's hard to remember that my life isn't over at 38. It's not and yet it is so hard to not think of the last 20 years as being wasted and what's the point of struggling another 30 years if I didn't learn the meaning of life or how to save humanity yet. Why do I have to stumble while I learn to walk?
December 10, 2025 at 5:48 AM
It's hard to remember that my life isn't over at 38. It's not and yet it is so hard to not think of the last 20 years as being wasted and what's the point of struggling another 30 years if I didn't learn the meaning of life or how to save humanity yet. Why do I have to stumble while I learn to walk?
what if everyone just got a few weeks off to do nothing or anything they wanted?
December 9, 2025 at 5:59 PM
what if everyone just got a few weeks off to do nothing or anything they wanted?
We are all just trying to survive a life we didn't pick, in a world we didn't choose. That's all we have in common with each other.
Everything after that is our own as much as something could be given our culture, upbringing and genetics.
You know, if you believe in Genetics or culture or whatever.
Everything after that is our own as much as something could be given our culture, upbringing and genetics.
You know, if you believe in Genetics or culture or whatever.
December 6, 2025 at 7:45 PM
We are all just trying to survive a life we didn't pick, in a world we didn't choose. That's all we have in common with each other.
Everything after that is our own as much as something could be given our culture, upbringing and genetics.
You know, if you believe in Genetics or culture or whatever.
Everything after that is our own as much as something could be given our culture, upbringing and genetics.
You know, if you believe in Genetics or culture or whatever.
I hate being broken. Not in a sexy edgy way that fuels a problematic YA series. I'm just messy. Can't seem to pick up the pieces or take steps that better myself for myself and family. As if swimming upstream to little success and anytime I need to take a breath it means I take a step back
December 4, 2025 at 8:11 PM
I hate being broken. Not in a sexy edgy way that fuels a problematic YA series. I'm just messy. Can't seem to pick up the pieces or take steps that better myself for myself and family. As if swimming upstream to little success and anytime I need to take a breath it means I take a step back
Leaves are supposed to fall during the proper season or at a specific time. You're supposed to grow new ones when needed.
It's all about need and purpose.
What's your need right now? What season are you in?
Or maybe you need to uproot it all and move to SoCal for a few years to just chill.
It's all about need and purpose.
What's your need right now? What season are you in?
Or maybe you need to uproot it all and move to SoCal for a few years to just chill.
December 1, 2025 at 7:15 PM
Leaves are supposed to fall during the proper season or at a specific time. You're supposed to grow new ones when needed.
It's all about need and purpose.
What's your need right now? What season are you in?
Or maybe you need to uproot it all and move to SoCal for a few years to just chill.
It's all about need and purpose.
What's your need right now? What season are you in?
Or maybe you need to uproot it all and move to SoCal for a few years to just chill.
I don't regret kids. I regret being who I am and not being more of the parent they (and any child) deserve.
I regret not being in a better place when we had our kids.
God I fear apologizing to my children for fucking them over because I was too scared and weak to change earlier.
I regret not being in a better place when we had our kids.
God I fear apologizing to my children for fucking them over because I was too scared and weak to change earlier.
November 26, 2025 at 7:24 AM
I don't regret kids. I regret being who I am and not being more of the parent they (and any child) deserve.
I regret not being in a better place when we had our kids.
God I fear apologizing to my children for fucking them over because I was too scared and weak to change earlier.
I regret not being in a better place when we had our kids.
God I fear apologizing to my children for fucking them over because I was too scared and weak to change earlier.
I'm stifling a cry because I have too much work to do and can cry to myself later tonight if need be. Just need to put that out in the world for a minute.
November 25, 2025 at 8:27 PM
I'm stifling a cry because I have too much work to do and can cry to myself later tonight if need be. Just need to put that out in the world for a minute.
I look forward to the future when I look back on this time and think I'm really glad I continued (my own) therapy and continued to fight for my practice.
Until then...
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
*Insert the h.e.a.v.i.e.s.t of sighs*
Until then...
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
*Insert the h.e.a.v.i.e.s.t of sighs*
November 25, 2025 at 7:03 PM
I look forward to the future when I look back on this time and think I'm really glad I continued (my own) therapy and continued to fight for my practice.
Until then...
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
*Insert the h.e.a.v.i.e.s.t of sighs*
Until then...
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuukkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.
*Insert the h.e.a.v.i.e.s.t of sighs*
coffee at 5p.
no I'm not burning the midnight oil I just have children under the age of 5.
no I'm not burning the midnight oil I just have children under the age of 5.
November 21, 2025 at 1:05 AM
coffee at 5p.
no I'm not burning the midnight oil I just have children under the age of 5.
no I'm not burning the midnight oil I just have children under the age of 5.
Hope isn't found. It's not a magical meteorite that falls from the heavens. It is forged from the materials around us.
Peace isn't an accident. It's not something that falls naturally forms of it's own accord. It is planted, watered and cultivated daily.
This shit is a choice we have to make daily
Peace isn't an accident. It's not something that falls naturally forms of it's own accord. It is planted, watered and cultivated daily.
This shit is a choice we have to make daily
November 16, 2025 at 5:20 PM
Hope isn't found. It's not a magical meteorite that falls from the heavens. It is forged from the materials around us.
Peace isn't an accident. It's not something that falls naturally forms of it's own accord. It is planted, watered and cultivated daily.
This shit is a choice we have to make daily
Peace isn't an accident. It's not something that falls naturally forms of it's own accord. It is planted, watered and cultivated daily.
This shit is a choice we have to make daily
I love being a psychotherapist
November 15, 2025 at 7:11 PM
I love being a psychotherapist
jumping on social media is like opening the door to the gym thinking I'm going to the bleachers but really it's just straight onto the court. Like the midline of the court, mid battle. To get to the bleachers I have to cross field of battle and usually take a few hits before I can sit safely.
November 12, 2025 at 8:17 PM
jumping on social media is like opening the door to the gym thinking I'm going to the bleachers but really it's just straight onto the court. Like the midline of the court, mid battle. To get to the bleachers I have to cross field of battle and usually take a few hits before I can sit safely.
"The psychiatric patient stands apart from the rest of the world... Loneliness is the central core of his* illness, no matter what his illness may be."
a different existence, pg 105, J.H. van den Berg
a different existence, pg 105, J.H. van den Berg
November 6, 2025 at 8:15 PM
"The psychiatric patient stands apart from the rest of the world... Loneliness is the central core of his* illness, no matter what his illness may be."
a different existence, pg 105, J.H. van den Berg
a different existence, pg 105, J.H. van den Berg
"The relationship between man* and world is so close that it is erroneous to separate them in a psychological or psychiatric examination. If they are separated, the patient ceases to be this particular patient and his world ceases to be his world."
November 5, 2025 at 2:46 PM
"The relationship between man* and world is so close that it is erroneous to separate them in a psychological or psychiatric examination. If they are separated, the patient ceases to be this particular patient and his world ceases to be his world."
I think my end goal here for my social medial subscription settings is: 3-5 political, ALL the artists, ANY comedians, 10 psychology and therapy.
November 4, 2025 at 8:06 PM
I think my end goal here for my social medial subscription settings is: 3-5 political, ALL the artists, ANY comedians, 10 psychology and therapy.
I, for one, look forward to when my kids are old enough to explain to me how new tech works and how I'm being inefficient. I don't have time to look up that shit anymore. So if my kid can keep me updated and make things easier for me while I still work and support them yes please. Fair trade to me.
November 1, 2025 at 8:59 PM
I, for one, look forward to when my kids are old enough to explain to me how new tech works and how I'm being inefficient. I don't have time to look up that shit anymore. So if my kid can keep me updated and make things easier for me while I still work and support them yes please. Fair trade to me.
It's been so long since I've faced such a trial. The mental anguish is physical. The internal chorus of chaos is leaving me almost desperate.
Why are Doritos so good?
Why are Doritos so good?
October 30, 2025 at 4:46 AM
It's been so long since I've faced such a trial. The mental anguish is physical. The internal chorus of chaos is leaving me almost desperate.
Why are Doritos so good?
Why are Doritos so good?
I'm not much of a family provider. Struggle with long-term planning and short term execution.
I'm not much of a parent. Struggle with my own depression and weird upbringing.
I'm not much of a therapist. See above.
I love my kids and partner more than anything.
hoping that's enough to stay afloat
I'm not much of a parent. Struggle with my own depression and weird upbringing.
I'm not much of a therapist. See above.
I love my kids and partner more than anything.
hoping that's enough to stay afloat
October 29, 2025 at 6:20 PM
I'm not much of a family provider. Struggle with long-term planning and short term execution.
I'm not much of a parent. Struggle with my own depression and weird upbringing.
I'm not much of a therapist. See above.
I love my kids and partner more than anything.
hoping that's enough to stay afloat
I'm not much of a parent. Struggle with my own depression and weird upbringing.
I'm not much of a therapist. See above.
I love my kids and partner more than anything.
hoping that's enough to stay afloat
HOWLONGCANIUSEMYHAPPYLIGHTWITHOUTSTOPPING?
October 29, 2025 at 1:26 AM
HOWLONGCANIUSEMYHAPPYLIGHTWITHOUTSTOPPING?
What's my shit to fix vs their shit to fix vs our shit to fix?
What is my depression vs their trauma?
What can I share with them and what can they share with me? Screw me relationships are complicated.
What is my depression vs their trauma?
What can I share with them and what can they share with me? Screw me relationships are complicated.
October 28, 2025 at 10:26 PM
What's my shit to fix vs their shit to fix vs our shit to fix?
What is my depression vs their trauma?
What can I share with them and what can they share with me? Screw me relationships are complicated.
What is my depression vs their trauma?
What can I share with them and what can they share with me? Screw me relationships are complicated.
Getting tossed around in a storm of depression. A flashing light reminds me that authenticity is all that matters. I will die regardless or not I get these notes done today or next week. I will die regardless or not my partner and I rediscover our love. All I can leave behind is proof I tried.
October 28, 2025 at 6:18 PM
Getting tossed around in a storm of depression. A flashing light reminds me that authenticity is all that matters. I will die regardless or not I get these notes done today or next week. I will die regardless or not my partner and I rediscover our love. All I can leave behind is proof I tried.
For the longest time I was afraid of watching Jan 6th videos because I was worried I'd see my extended family or old friends. I never did see them when I watched the footage but that doesn't mean they weren't there or didn't do/say something equally deplorable elsewhere. Still makes me quite sad.
October 25, 2025 at 8:41 PM
For the longest time I was afraid of watching Jan 6th videos because I was worried I'd see my extended family or old friends. I never did see them when I watched the footage but that doesn't mean they weren't there or didn't do/say something equally deplorable elsewhere. Still makes me quite sad.
Who do I blame for the fact I Iive in the PNW and hadn't heard "dying day" by Brandi & the Twins until yesterday?
October 23, 2025 at 6:50 PM
Who do I blame for the fact I Iive in the PNW and hadn't heard "dying day" by Brandi & the Twins until yesterday?
So wait, why don't mental health therapists have a union?
October 22, 2025 at 10:51 PM
So wait, why don't mental health therapists have a union?