it's no black desert in terms of self destructive procrastination (flash backs to my BDO private server days and how shitty that was for me in terms of repetitive task in game make bad feelings go away time wasting)

but it sure is close :')

overwhelmed positive!! !! I love the designs. I just don't have like...the visual language library in my brain/practice to make things even vaguely like that in a way I'm happy with.

turns out...thing you do not even make or put the time in to learning is also thing you are bad at making!! !!