Idk I really don't know.

It's all in my head and is major paranoia but idk.

I just feel it very heavily. I also always feel this need to make a video addressing everything that's happened over the past 2 years but also I don't either? Like do I feel ready? Do I feel pushed to? Is it safe for me to do so more importantly?

Nobody cares and that everything I make is stagnant and that I'm not growing enough as a creator and I'm still being seen or perceived in a light I am no longer apart of and that makes me really scared at times.

You made me remember hero forge exists-

I remember using it very briefly and I cannot for the life of me remember why

Trying to just relax and enjoy being single is something I haven't done before .

Especially with all those negative cognitions surrounding the subject which there really shouldn't be.

I felt it was unfair to put my unhealed burdens onto him.)

But trying to enjoy being single is a struggle especially when unfortunately if you're like me you heavily put your worth onto how much people like you in a certain way, or your relationship status or the attention of said partner etc

Being single I'm trying not to think of it as a bad thing, after all; I'm actually happier single than I am when I'm in a relationship but that's probably got to do with more of the people I dated bar one guy who was actually lovely!

(I broke it off cause I wasn't ready when I thought I was.

Thank you!

It was crazy because the things I write often never ever escape from my own eyes.

It was amazing. I love performing and I missed performing so much.

Won't be my last time I don't think ;)

Maybe I will upload it to my channel or a more produced version of it.

But my god it was thrilling.

I had a lot of people come up to me and say I did great and it was fantastic and even a friend's girlfriend thanked me and said "I really needed to hear that"