I think I just need to let go of pride, sense of uniqueness, and all these mental blocks, and desire to be original for over 2 or 5 years, who knows.
Because at this point, either I take the plunge, and get out of the rut, or remain without drawing anything for another 2 years.

after all, many artists that I liked, don't even draw anymore.
And, some maybe only I know. It really is as crazy as that.
I still have some drawing images, that wow, I have never seen anyone posting it on the webs before. I think the internet does not really retain everything after all.

and it is kinda easy to get into this repetitive behavior,
suddenly, you made a mental block.

I don't know boy, a part in me wonders if I had started as a teen I wouldn't simply have gone and done it, no second thoughts, after all...

3 months have gone, and I know that at this rate, maybe I won't be drawing anything this year after all, so boy , who cares, if it is not directly tracing, it is still learning, the rest is kinda who cares.

And if suddenly, I start to post a bunch, after not doing , zilch, after more than 2 years, a part in me will feel like a faker,

but at this point I don't think it really matters.
because what really matters is the practice, the rest is kinda pointless.

Maybe at this point it simply is the best I could do.

I think I need to give it more value to simply the fact of practice, and it does not even matter what I do.

Maybe if I am not directly tracing, then maybe it is a win.

Boy, my skill is completely rusty.
By this point, I thought that I could be creating new things with a easier time,
but now I realized that maybe I'm better off redoing new versions of old shota works,

it simply cannot be new, it just can't,but who cares,

but it is not like it even matters,haha.

具合悪いときの弟、だいたいこんな感じで手を繋ぎたがってくる

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I'm unconcerned, though, lately I've been thinking, yeah, some people come and go, and so yeah, 🤨 it is better to make some changes that go like, oh, wow ☺️ I like this one very much, very much much so 😁 it is the one thing that matters.

I think any place takes time to grow.
I mean, even baraag, if you think about it, was much smaller when it started.

Ow!

and it is actually the kind of anime that when you look back, the appearance, it's like, oh, wow, that is pretty great, the looks, it's not even nostalgia nor anything like that, not to spoil, but that is some nice kemono-mimi. 🙂
Holds up pretty nicely.

Long ago, I watched an anime called Kanokon which had a fox boy called Kouta.
I bit too straight, indeed, but I guess it goes to show how much we are missing , you know, some boy-boy interaction on anime and such. 😅

Little vampire 🦇🦇

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