had a sad tweet but i cant remember it so we take those.

the thought "if I could just give my life to someone more deserving" is a recurring thought that often comes up in my mind, especially when I'm being a useless failure like right now.

but, evidently I'm still like this after all of that so I really don't know anymore. it's the last thing that I realistically can do that will make me want to live. everything else helped of course but I'm still like this so I don't know. I really don't know.

moving out is my very last final thing I can try to see if it actually helps me but I'm kinda doubtful. I always told myself that if I can just move out I'll be ok but idk anymore. I also told myself if I just get a girlfriend and get on hrt and become skinnier and all of this stuff then I'd be ok.

I think someone sharing you their stories and memories and photos is so intimate. sharing their day to day with you. it was always so serene talking to her no matter what. I hope we can meet again in our third life somehow, but it probably won't happen. a 2nd chance is far more than I ever expected.

still forever one of the nicest people I knew and I'm glad I could talk to her and find out she really was still like that in dms too. she helped me after I got broken up with and before that she was so kind in sharing so many pictures and memories and her stories. it was nice to have a penpal.

approximately 75% of the asian american population over here

every time I hit the pen it never feels right.

on.soundcloud.com/qlmeKlKXBJMD...

that's so hype sounds like such an amazing birthday... no problem and have fun!!!

happy birthday bloomfie I hope it's a good one 🥳🎉🎂

I get it though