Diary of a Mad White Woman
@madwhitewomandiary.bsky.social
Buckle up for some raw shit. 😤🤬😈🥳
Stories and rants from my life, as someone with Borderline Personality Disorder married to a narcissist.
It’s my time to shine. By shine, I mean light everything on fire. 🔥
(56, she/her)
#diary #BPD #donotcareclub
Stories and rants from my life, as someone with Borderline Personality Disorder married to a narcissist.
It’s my time to shine. By shine, I mean light everything on fire. 🔥
(56, she/her)
#diary #BPD #donotcareclub
I’m laughing my ass off right now about the recent revelations of who offed that stupid asshole.
Bahahahaha
I knew that no self-respecting Dem would ever wear a t-shirt with an American flag. We’re not morons in a fucking cult.
Bahahahaha in your faces, stupid cunts! It was one of your own! 😈🥳
Bahahahaha
I knew that no self-respecting Dem would ever wear a t-shirt with an American flag. We’re not morons in a fucking cult.
Bahahahaha in your faces, stupid cunts! It was one of your own! 😈🥳
September 12, 2025 at 2:25 PM
I’m laughing my ass off right now about the recent revelations of who offed that stupid asshole.
Bahahahaha
I knew that no self-respecting Dem would ever wear a t-shirt with an American flag. We’re not morons in a fucking cult.
Bahahahaha in your faces, stupid cunts! It was one of your own! 😈🥳
Bahahahaha
I knew that no self-respecting Dem would ever wear a t-shirt with an American flag. We’re not morons in a fucking cult.
Bahahahaha in your faces, stupid cunts! It was one of your own! 😈🥳
Husband this morning during a serious talk about our marriage:
Him: If we split up, I could meet a rich woman and you’d have nothing.
Me: 🧐😵💫😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Him: 😬
Me thinking: You’re an addict, you’re lousy in bed, you’re lazy, and emotionally abusive, so….good luck! Also, I’ll have half a million!
Him: If we split up, I could meet a rich woman and you’d have nothing.
Me: 🧐😵💫😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Him: 😬
Me thinking: You’re an addict, you’re lousy in bed, you’re lazy, and emotionally abusive, so….good luck! Also, I’ll have half a million!
July 19, 2025 at 6:49 PM
Husband this morning during a serious talk about our marriage:
Him: If we split up, I could meet a rich woman and you’d have nothing.
Me: 🧐😵💫😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Him: 😬
Me thinking: You’re an addict, you’re lousy in bed, you’re lazy, and emotionally abusive, so….good luck! Also, I’ll have half a million!
Him: If we split up, I could meet a rich woman and you’d have nothing.
Me: 🧐😵💫😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Him: 😬
Me thinking: You’re an addict, you’re lousy in bed, you’re lazy, and emotionally abusive, so….good luck! Also, I’ll have half a million!
My mom hasn’t called in three weeks and I don’t give a fuck.
She fucking ruined my life. She can fuck right off.
She knew I was being molested by my older cousin when I was 12 but did NOTHING. Now she’s fucking 80 and expects me to kiss her ass. She can go get fucked with a cactus. 🌵
She fucking ruined my life. She can fuck right off.
She knew I was being molested by my older cousin when I was 12 but did NOTHING. Now she’s fucking 80 and expects me to kiss her ass. She can go get fucked with a cactus. 🌵
July 13, 2025 at 1:33 PM
My mom hasn’t called in three weeks and I don’t give a fuck.
She fucking ruined my life. She can fuck right off.
She knew I was being molested by my older cousin when I was 12 but did NOTHING. Now she’s fucking 80 and expects me to kiss her ass. She can go get fucked with a cactus. 🌵
She fucking ruined my life. She can fuck right off.
She knew I was being molested by my older cousin when I was 12 but did NOTHING. Now she’s fucking 80 and expects me to kiss her ass. She can go get fucked with a cactus. 🌵
Lately, I just keep saying to myself that I hate him. Do I really? I guess I hate his personality and his attitude and his behaviors but I don’t hate him as a human being.
His personality sucks ass.
His personality sucks ass.
July 13, 2025 at 1:30 PM
Lately, I just keep saying to myself that I hate him. Do I really? I guess I hate his personality and his attitude and his behaviors but I don’t hate him as a human being.
His personality sucks ass.
His personality sucks ass.
I actually hate him but I pretend to love him. Is that true? I think so but I’m not sure. He’s all I have. He just annoys me so much. It’s like he’s in his own world of trying to be noticed and admired and praised. It disgusts me. Disgusts.
July 12, 2025 at 5:02 PM
I actually hate him but I pretend to love him. Is that true? I think so but I’m not sure. He’s all I have. He just annoys me so much. It’s like he’s in his own world of trying to be noticed and admired and praised. It disgusts me. Disgusts.
Instead of losing my shit, I’ve got a good supply of weed, gabapentin, uppers, and Prozac. It’s a crazy mix of craziness. Maybe I should just leave him instead of all this self-medicating. Naaaaaaahhhhhh that’s too smart.
July 12, 2025 at 4:56 PM
Instead of losing my shit, I’ve got a good supply of weed, gabapentin, uppers, and Prozac. It’s a crazy mix of craziness. Maybe I should just leave him instead of all this self-medicating. Naaaaaaahhhhhh that’s too smart.
I’m so alone. My parents are narcs and so is my husband. I should run away. I’ve always wanted to just run away and give the middle finger to everyone. Maybe they’ll all just go away and let me live in peace.
July 12, 2025 at 4:53 PM
I’m so alone. My parents are narcs and so is my husband. I should run away. I’ve always wanted to just run away and give the middle finger to everyone. Maybe they’ll all just go away and let me live in peace.
The narc is back at it. He’s constantly watching me. He won’t let me be. Watching watching watching. Fuck right off.
July 12, 2025 at 4:51 PM
The narc is back at it. He’s constantly watching me. He won’t let me be. Watching watching watching. Fuck right off.
Feel like bed-rotting again. He’s being a pouty child again. Drinking more, smoking more. I just want him to leave me be. Don’t follow me or look for me. It’s creepy. You just quietly sulk off to your room to pout all day. Good. Pout. Enjoy your pouting.
June 21, 2025 at 3:57 PM
Feel like bed-rotting again. He’s being a pouty child again. Drinking more, smoking more. I just want him to leave me be. Don’t follow me or look for me. It’s creepy. You just quietly sulk off to your room to pout all day. Good. Pout. Enjoy your pouting.
Still a mad white woman. But I’m on Prozac and HRT now and so the madness is dimmed.
Dimmed but it still burns on as a small ember that can blow up into a full-blown bonfire at any time. 😈✌️🥳
Dimmed but it still burns on as a small ember that can blow up into a full-blown bonfire at any time. 😈✌️🥳
June 21, 2025 at 3:07 PM
Still a mad white woman. But I’m on Prozac and HRT now and so the madness is dimmed.
Dimmed but it still burns on as a small ember that can blow up into a full-blown bonfire at any time. 😈✌️🥳
Dimmed but it still burns on as a small ember that can blow up into a full-blown bonfire at any time. 😈✌️🥳
I need a friend who is codependent and has a love/hate relationship her spouse. So I can talk about how great my husband is one week and then next trash-talk him. And she won’t even bat an eye. 🤣😂
April 28, 2025 at 6:13 PM
I need a friend who is codependent and has a love/hate relationship her spouse. So I can talk about how great my husband is one week and then next trash-talk him. And she won’t even bat an eye. 🤣😂
I have another account with about 2k followers. I’m nobody out here so that cracks me up. I followed a bunch of people and they followed back.
Anyway, I feel like I can’t post much there or truly be myself. There are so many smart and sophisticated people out here! I feel like a shitposter!
Anyway, I feel like I can’t post much there or truly be myself. There are so many smart and sophisticated people out here! I feel like a shitposter!
April 23, 2025 at 7:37 PM
I have another account with about 2k followers. I’m nobody out here so that cracks me up. I followed a bunch of people and they followed back.
Anyway, I feel like I can’t post much there or truly be myself. There are so many smart and sophisticated people out here! I feel like a shitposter!
Anyway, I feel like I can’t post much there or truly be myself. There are so many smart and sophisticated people out here! I feel like a shitposter!
Who am I quiet quitting at the moment?
Everyone.
My husband, my parents, my brothers, my one friend.
I’m choosing alone.
It hurts a lot of days.
Everyone.
My husband, my parents, my brothers, my one friend.
I’m choosing alone.
It hurts a lot of days.
April 23, 2025 at 7:32 PM
Who am I quiet quitting at the moment?
Everyone.
My husband, my parents, my brothers, my one friend.
I’m choosing alone.
It hurts a lot of days.
Everyone.
My husband, my parents, my brothers, my one friend.
I’m choosing alone.
It hurts a lot of days.
If someone is a narcissist, I play along to get what I need out of the relationship. But there comes a time when the theater must end and that’s when I start the process of grey-rocking or quiet quitting someone. I leave just a sliver of myself attached to the person but I’m essentially gone.
April 23, 2025 at 7:28 PM
If someone is a narcissist, I play along to get what I need out of the relationship. But there comes a time when the theater must end and that’s when I start the process of grey-rocking or quiet quitting someone. I leave just a sliver of myself attached to the person but I’m essentially gone.
Even though my marriage is not good, I still have a lot to be thankful for.
I have no kids and no obligations to family.
I live 2500 miles from all family.
I live in a nice house that is paid off.
I live in a state and city that’s very left-leaning. 💙
I can do anything I want.
I have no kids and no obligations to family.
I live 2500 miles from all family.
I live in a nice house that is paid off.
I live in a state and city that’s very left-leaning. 💙
I can do anything I want.
April 23, 2025 at 7:16 PM
Even though my marriage is not good, I still have a lot to be thankful for.
I have no kids and no obligations to family.
I live 2500 miles from all family.
I live in a nice house that is paid off.
I live in a state and city that’s very left-leaning. 💙
I can do anything I want.
I have no kids and no obligations to family.
I live 2500 miles from all family.
I live in a nice house that is paid off.
I live in a state and city that’s very left-leaning. 💙
I can do anything I want.
I’m not sure why I’m acting aloof and annoyed with him. He’s doing stuff for me in the garden and he’s being pretty nice. I had split on him over the metal fencing incident and I just again convinced myself that he’s a narcissist. It can’t all be autism! He purposely gives me the silent treatment!
April 23, 2025 at 6:03 PM
I’m not sure why I’m acting aloof and annoyed with him. He’s doing stuff for me in the garden and he’s being pretty nice. I had split on him over the metal fencing incident and I just again convinced myself that he’s a narcissist. It can’t all be autism! He purposely gives me the silent treatment!
Yesterday he made me use an electric power tool cutter by myself when I was inexperienced and I’m naturally a clumsy person. He left me alone to cut a bunch of fencing. Sparks were flying at me and I was scared. Why wouldn’t he do it? He didn’t want to and didn’t care about me. 😡
April 19, 2025 at 11:46 PM
Yesterday he made me use an electric power tool cutter by myself when I was inexperienced and I’m naturally a clumsy person. He left me alone to cut a bunch of fencing. Sparks were flying at me and I was scared. Why wouldn’t he do it? He didn’t want to and didn’t care about me. 😡
Been in my bedroom all day splitting on my husband. He’s just so uninterested in anything about our home life. I want to make things beautiful here in our new house and he just doesn’t seem to care. His addictions have turned him into a lazy bum.
April 19, 2025 at 11:43 PM
Been in my bedroom all day splitting on my husband. He’s just so uninterested in anything about our home life. I want to make things beautiful here in our new house and he just doesn’t seem to care. His addictions have turned him into a lazy bum.
Took an autism test online last night and it said I am 93% likely to have autism. I have BPD. Maybe I have autistic traits but I think the test picked up my BPD more than anything else.
April 19, 2025 at 11:41 PM
Took an autism test online last night and it said I am 93% likely to have autism. I have BPD. Maybe I have autistic traits but I think the test picked up my BPD more than anything else.
This was a dumb idea. An account for my stories.
I don’t get Bluesky. The other day a few people added me to lists that were really rude. Pissed me off so much. I created rude lists and added them in retaliation.
I don’t get Bluesky. The other day a few people added me to lists that were really rude. Pissed me off so much. I created rude lists and added them in retaliation.
April 19, 2025 at 7:42 PM
This was a dumb idea. An account for my stories.
I don’t get Bluesky. The other day a few people added me to lists that were really rude. Pissed me off so much. I created rude lists and added them in retaliation.
I don’t get Bluesky. The other day a few people added me to lists that were really rude. Pissed me off so much. I created rude lists and added them in retaliation.
Looking classy is important to me. Especially as I age. I want to be a classy and cool older lady.
April 15, 2025 at 2:19 AM
Looking classy is important to me. Especially as I age. I want to be a classy and cool older lady.
What do I focus on these days? I’m 56. Only got maybe 5 years left before I really start to feel old. I sacrificed the last 5 years of my life for nothing and the stress really changed my looks. Oh and menopause. I want a new haircut, spiky pixie with blonde streaks. Ear piercings. Classy.
April 15, 2025 at 2:18 AM
What do I focus on these days? I’m 56. Only got maybe 5 years left before I really start to feel old. I sacrificed the last 5 years of my life for nothing and the stress really changed my looks. Oh and menopause. I want a new haircut, spiky pixie with blonde streaks. Ear piercings. Classy.
Seeing all the news about the stock market crashing and that fuckface just gleaming with joy over what he’s doing to our country is killing me. I want revenge so badly. If my brothers lose their 401k because they voted for dickfuck then I’m gonna laugh so fucking hard. Assholes!
April 7, 2025 at 4:10 PM
Seeing all the news about the stock market crashing and that fuckface just gleaming with joy over what he’s doing to our country is killing me. I want revenge so badly. If my brothers lose their 401k because they voted for dickfuck then I’m gonna laugh so fucking hard. Assholes!
I can’t keep up the fun third person writing because I’m just too depressed. My husband never helps us make any decisions. He’s a “Solvem Probler” like he’s in fucking kindergarten.
April 7, 2025 at 4:02 PM
I can’t keep up the fun third person writing because I’m just too depressed. My husband never helps us make any decisions. He’s a “Solvem Probler” like he’s in fucking kindergarten.
My husband grew up in a much wealthier family than I did. He inherited quite a bit of stock. He has refused to cash it in and now it’s dropping really fast. I wanted to secure it in a high yield savings but he wanted to fuck around instead. What an asshole.
April 7, 2025 at 3:58 PM
My husband grew up in a much wealthier family than I did. He inherited quite a bit of stock. He has refused to cash it in and now it’s dropping really fast. I wanted to secure it in a high yield savings but he wanted to fuck around instead. What an asshole.