i tend to overthink a lot when i try to create something. because it needs intention. but reading fic shuts off that overthinking. ill only focus on taking in what the particular author is envisioning

people who only think its neglectful older brother slash childhood hero trauma aint seeing the vision fully. sae very overly also acts as a psudo maternal figure for rin. rin is like that because mommy issues will land you in therapy for minimum two decades

i want blogging back! i also endorse small web revival in general. shrines and fan sites and personal websites...id be fun seeing them dominating again

yes leadership of tumblr is bad and the culture of the website is a little bit outdated but nothing that cannot be molded. it has longetivity still. honestly its a way better option than full decentralization and we can evade nsfw bans through other websites

my imagined future is either websites + discord or well simply move to hostile platforms like tiktok. its hopeless for fediverse even if i like them in theory, they just never catch on with a larger public. genuinely im imagining...tumblr is the closest to "best"

i dont think we have any working infrastructure right now for fandom that cannot disappear in seconds. twitter imo has 30 minutes to live with how its headed rn. tiktok is not optimized for fanartists. i think discord is entering enshittification stage 2 so its got like 3- 4 years maybe?

my fannish feelings will never die. theyll likely just evolve and take new shapes. but without the right spaces to express those feelings, theyll probably just echo with no real receiver in mind

i keep thinking a lot about how i will imagine my future with fandom. is it even possible to stick around if all the platforms just detoriate. im not saying itll die, but itll be scattered to such a extent it might as well feel like it died?

like last time my fixation was more detached but this time its truly getting to me full force no bracing the impact

i just need my thoughts to be somewhere i dont care where

i think i decked around 7 pm and slept all the way to 10 am. haha. but then again i was sleep deprived as hell i needed it

i dont want to aim for it being too complicated, but would be enjoyable to try out new techniques for every new drawing if possible so it feels actually meaningful

my favorite part about rin is that hes a anime guy with the soul of a 14 years old teen girl

me when im normally obsessed with my rival and my niichan