Poppy✨🐛
@makemeskinny.bsky.social
✨TW✨
35
She/Her
Bulimia
BPD
cw: posted
hw: 196lbs
lw: 86lb
gw: 105lbs
35
She/Her
Bulimia
BPD
cw: posted
hw: 196lbs
lw: 86lb
gw: 105lbs
Getting your fella to make you a Horlicks light and he weighs 34g so you make him take out the 2g extra and now you’re realising you will probs never get another hot beverage made for you is bittersweet.
February 24, 2025 at 8:59 PM
Getting your fella to make you a Horlicks light and he weighs 34g so you make him take out the 2g extra and now you’re realising you will probs never get another hot beverage made for you is bittersweet.
Didn’t binge. Had maybe a 1/4 of a cup of noodles just before midnight. First CBT session today, bricking it.
February 17, 2025 at 7:25 AM
Didn’t binge. Had maybe a 1/4 of a cup of noodles just before midnight. First CBT session today, bricking it.
Had a bowl of celery and lettuce with a fat free french dressing for lunch, and 300g vegetable soup for dinner.
Really feel like I wanna binge. This sucks.
#edsky #caterpillarsky
Really feel like I wanna binge. This sucks.
#edsky #caterpillarsky
February 16, 2025 at 9:02 PM
Had a bowl of celery and lettuce with a fat free french dressing for lunch, and 300g vegetable soup for dinner.
Really feel like I wanna binge. This sucks.
#edsky #caterpillarsky
Really feel like I wanna binge. This sucks.
#edsky #caterpillarsky
Guess who literally binged / purged in McDonalds yesterday when it was mad busy 🙋🏼♀️
I’m so tired. Of bulimia. Of BPD. Of having to go through this shit everyday. Of being here.
I’m so tired. Of bulimia. Of BPD. Of having to go through this shit everyday. Of being here.
February 15, 2025 at 1:48 PM
Guess who literally binged / purged in McDonalds yesterday when it was mad busy 🙋🏼♀️
I’m so tired. Of bulimia. Of BPD. Of having to go through this shit everyday. Of being here.
I’m so tired. Of bulimia. Of BPD. Of having to go through this shit everyday. Of being here.
Nearly slipped up and told C about this account, caught myself just in time 🫠
February 2, 2025 at 9:56 PM
Nearly slipped up and told C about this account, caught myself just in time 🫠
So I’ve decided to attend the first CBT appointment. I’ve had ED therapy 3 times face to face and I quit twice, was discharged once bc of a stint in the nuthut 🙄
Also had online and I quit.
I really wanna take this chance. I really do. I’m just fucking terrified.
#edsky
Also had online and I quit.
I really wanna take this chance. I really do. I’m just fucking terrified.
#edsky
February 1, 2025 at 6:02 PM
So I’ve decided to attend the first CBT appointment. I’ve had ED therapy 3 times face to face and I quit twice, was discharged once bc of a stint in the nuthut 🙄
Also had online and I quit.
I really wanna take this chance. I really do. I’m just fucking terrified.
#edsky
Also had online and I quit.
I really wanna take this chance. I really do. I’m just fucking terrified.
#edsky
I’ve been offered ED CBT therapy. I know this is FUCKED, but I kinda wanna go to make myself worse, knowing someone will weigh me EVERY WEEK. Bitch I don’t even tell C what I weigh 🤷🏼♀️
#edsky #caterpillersky
#edsky #caterpillersky
February 1, 2025 at 3:22 PM
I’ve been offered ED CBT therapy. I know this is FUCKED, but I kinda wanna go to make myself worse, knowing someone will weigh me EVERY WEEK. Bitch I don’t even tell C what I weigh 🤷🏼♀️
#edsky #caterpillersky
#edsky #caterpillersky
And for the record I am absolutely NOT cheating. But lately he seems different. I don’t know if it’s just anxiety bc of his past OR, my fear is that he’s projecting by accusing me of being unfaithful.
Idk. Sat on the floor with a cig and a Pepsi max trying to fix the vacuum. Korn playlist helps 🤷🏼♀️
Idk. Sat on the floor with a cig and a Pepsi max trying to fix the vacuum. Korn playlist helps 🤷🏼♀️
January 29, 2025 at 2:36 PM
And for the record I am absolutely NOT cheating. But lately he seems different. I don’t know if it’s just anxiety bc of his past OR, my fear is that he’s projecting by accusing me of being unfaithful.
Idk. Sat on the floor with a cig and a Pepsi max trying to fix the vacuum. Korn playlist helps 🤷🏼♀️
Idk. Sat on the floor with a cig and a Pepsi max trying to fix the vacuum. Korn playlist helps 🤷🏼♀️
Urgh bulimia SUCKS. I’ve got LOADS of blisters on my tongue, cheeks, and roof of my mouth from purging.. I just bit my tongue chewing gum. Burst a blister and it started bleeding. C feels kinda off.. like he’s being TOO nice? He’s been not so subtly hunting I’m cheating. Is he? Idk. CBA.
January 29, 2025 at 2:17 PM
Urgh bulimia SUCKS. I’ve got LOADS of blisters on my tongue, cheeks, and roof of my mouth from purging.. I just bit my tongue chewing gum. Burst a blister and it started bleeding. C feels kinda off.. like he’s being TOO nice? He’s been not so subtly hunting I’m cheating. Is he? Idk. CBA.
Cried for 80% of the day. Get me the fuck to bed.
January 26, 2025 at 7:22 PM
Cried for 80% of the day. Get me the fuck to bed.
I’m so fucking disgusted with myself. I’m sick of taking up so much space.
January 25, 2025 at 7:37 PM
I’m so fucking disgusted with myself. I’m sick of taking up so much space.
Drinking endless amounts of tea as a desperate attempt to stop myself from eating today. It’s 4:19pm. I REALLY wanna make it to 7am.
January 23, 2025 at 4:19 PM
Drinking endless amounts of tea as a desperate attempt to stop myself from eating today. It’s 4:19pm. I REALLY wanna make it to 7am.
So the doctor was useless, won’t give me stronger painkillers (broke two bones in my spine mid march, and it’s not healing, I have osteopenia thanks to ED), and then he shook his belly, said ‘everyone could stand to lose some weight’, and he looked me up and down.
Safe to say I’m a state.
Safe to say I’m a state.
January 22, 2025 at 10:40 AM
So the doctor was useless, won’t give me stronger painkillers (broke two bones in my spine mid march, and it’s not healing, I have osteopenia thanks to ED), and then he shook his belly, said ‘everyone could stand to lose some weight’, and he looked me up and down.
Safe to say I’m a state.
Safe to say I’m a state.
Fact. That cheese kills me off bc I actually can’t resist.
January 22, 2025 at 9:53 AM
Fact. That cheese kills me off bc I actually can’t resist.
At the doctors. Praying they don’t weigh me bc yeah no.
January 22, 2025 at 9:52 AM
At the doctors. Praying they don’t weigh me bc yeah no.
So I b/p, there was quite a bit of blood, light red so fresh, it’s freaked me out. I know it won’t stop me tho soo 🫠
January 21, 2025 at 11:49 PM
So I b/p, there was quite a bit of blood, light red so fresh, it’s freaked me out. I know it won’t stop me tho soo 🫠
Currently feeling proper huge, so naturally I’ll fix these horrid feels with a crap load of sausage butties and hash browns.
Fucking hate myself.
Fucking hate myself.
January 21, 2025 at 6:51 PM
Currently feeling proper huge, so naturally I’ll fix these horrid feels with a crap load of sausage butties and hash browns.
Fucking hate myself.
Fucking hate myself.
You’ll never guess who binged again last night! Spoiler alert -
It was me 🙋🏼♀️
It was me 🙋🏼♀️
January 21, 2025 at 8:26 AM
You’ll never guess who binged again last night! Spoiler alert -
It was me 🙋🏼♀️
It was me 🙋🏼♀️
Sat in the chemist waiting for my meds. Feel so huge and gross and I just want to fucking rip my skin off. I take up to much space and I can’t cope like this.
January 20, 2025 at 9:51 AM
Sat in the chemist waiting for my meds. Feel so huge and gross and I just want to fucking rip my skin off. I take up to much space and I can’t cope like this.
Rewatching LOST, so many parts in this show get me crying and it’s so dumb 🙃😂
January 20, 2025 at 8:22 AM
Rewatching LOST, so many parts in this show get me crying and it’s so dumb 🙃😂
Binged last night. Again. Didn’t purge. Down 1.4lbs still. Need to do better today. REALLY need to do better.
January 20, 2025 at 7:38 AM
Binged last night. Again. Didn’t purge. Down 1.4lbs still. Need to do better today. REALLY need to do better.
Got in bed and took night meds. C didn’t want to come to bed and I was fine with it. He then came in, in a strop, and said ‘watch what you want’
Hope he enjoys tangled.
Hope he enjoys tangled.
January 19, 2025 at 6:12 PM
Got in bed and took night meds. C didn’t want to come to bed and I was fine with it. He then came in, in a strop, and said ‘watch what you want’
Hope he enjoys tangled.
Hope he enjoys tangled.
Taken a cocktail of pain meds (fractured my spine in march, thank you anorexia and bulimia for my weak arse bones) and just smoked a joint. Really wanna go for a walk. Made C (bf) food, and he was so ungrateful, it makes me wonder why I bother sometimes.
Today is a bad day.
Today is a bad day.
January 19, 2025 at 5:52 PM
Taken a cocktail of pain meds (fractured my spine in march, thank you anorexia and bulimia for my weak arse bones) and just smoked a joint. Really wanna go for a walk. Made C (bf) food, and he was so ungrateful, it makes me wonder why I bother sometimes.
Today is a bad day.
Today is a bad day.
Had some veggie thing for my first meal today at about 3:45pm, Mediterranean style meat free grill, from aldi. 227 cals once cooked, and it was really good.
Trying to fill up on coffee and tea though now, as I’m still hungry. My head is too loud.
Trying to fill up on coffee and tea though now, as I’m still hungry. My head is too loud.
January 19, 2025 at 4:42 PM
Had some veggie thing for my first meal today at about 3:45pm, Mediterranean style meat free grill, from aldi. 227 cals once cooked, and it was really good.
Trying to fill up on coffee and tea though now, as I’m still hungry. My head is too loud.
Trying to fill up on coffee and tea though now, as I’m still hungry. My head is too loud.
Honestly love making someone food, then sitting down with just a cup of tea or coffee, just drinking it and watching them eat.
Can’t just be me?!
#edsky #caterpillarsky
Can’t just be me?!
#edsky #caterpillarsky
January 19, 2025 at 4:07 PM
Honestly love making someone food, then sitting down with just a cup of tea or coffee, just drinking it and watching them eat.
Can’t just be me?!
#edsky #caterpillarsky
Can’t just be me?!
#edsky #caterpillarsky