If you're reading this and you're going through it too I'm wishing you all the softness and support. Anxiety and panic makes life difficult but please don't give up.

My shoulders at my ears
And the helplessness of knowing that if I can barely be a passenger how long will it take me to be able to drive again

I feel like I'm deteriorating instead of getting better and I hate that too.

It's not pretty.
I hate the feeling of my heart racing
thinking I can't breathe and having to take shallow breaths
not being able to look at my surroundings as the car shakes around me
How cold the ice I have to crunch is on my tongue and mouth

I can't even look up while on the drive. I focus on my phone the music, anything to keep me from going into extreme distress so I don't make the driver concerned for my mental or physical safety.

That is the stuff of nightmares!

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