Apparently I look like Joan Baez now

that made me update my teams pfp so...

I love her. I wish she could .. know, yk? That someone cares so, so much

Just saw a picture from last week. She's still in hospital, covered in burnt scars but recovering, doing well, laughing. She's smiling in that picture. Smiling. She's the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.

One year of cringe art, cringe writing. One year of assuming people say nice things just to be nice bc I just can't bring myself to believe at least a little in my own mediocrity.

One year of losing friends one by one bc of how my fucking brain is wired. One year of getting progressively terrified of interacting in places I once felt welcome in. One year of pain so unbearable it made me throw up at times. One year of thinking about it every single day

I have to spend 10 days at her place I don't think I have it in me

my god

Wish I could be hyped about Kotor 3 but I'm so tired of sw oversaturating everything and I'm pissed that's where Casey went and that's why me5 is forever delayed

Dis I show you my bones? They were so fun to make (styrofoam, silk paper, coffee bath)

Lost this person and then a month later my irl best friend who just ditched bc I was honest after he asked me to be honest. And people still tell me to get out there and make new friends literally i'd rather swallow razor blades

Still thinking about that person I was extremely close to who one day decided my depressed ass was too much for them and sent me a list of all the reasons why I was too much and why we couldn't be friends anymore.

I mean I get it depressed friends who can't get excited over anything are so fucking boring

And people get upset when I talk about suicide lmao