its not a big deal but IIIIIIM THE JOKER BABYYYYYYYYY

particularly when theres no warning and we all just have to guess if youre talking to us or now. AND no one else can talk now until youre done because youre speaking at full volume! this isnt a physical party the rest of can't just carry on while you talk on the side we're in a voice based medium!!!

like i dont mind if you answer a question from your roommate or whatever in passing but initiating full blown discussion about meals or your plans after. MUTE!! STEP AWAY!!!!!

it doesnt mean he wont try it. Length of chain attached to the foot of the bed, just long enough to get to his desk or the small washroom just outside his dorm room. no further food has to be brought to him ❤️

what he needs with a deadline approaching is a hater someone with a monocle who doesn't think he can do it. sharlayan's full of them which is where he gets the juice for four archon marks worth of study and publishing

ultimately though it does mean hes struggling with his own desirability more in his solo wolcanon. his brain likes rules likes structures he likes knowing concretely what his partners get out of an experience. "i think he just likes you" impossible. there must be something going on.

which is fine. lonnys desperately attracted to him. can eroticize a bit of the unspoken. part of why he likes riling him up to be annoyed with his employees, it gives him glimpses. but its very rarely realized in his direction and when it is it usually means theres a serious discussion in the offing

cid doesnt have the energy for anything veering on a staid dynamic. even the lighter stuff, titles and some intro level funishments, always makes him feel a little silly. He doesn't get much of a rush out of powertripping unless he's legitimately pissed off at someone and he rarely is with lonny

hes capable of going without i think ultimately the emotional connection matters to him a little more than Dynamics. Going out to find someone for the purposes of domming would feel a little hollow to him. but its crazy how this guys sense of well being snaps into place while wearing a day collar

cid vs raubahn vs hancock if you will-

very easy to call his bluff by just making him continue whatever he was doing when he got interrupted while its happening. buys you twenty minutes of red-faced silence