i dunno its my own neuroticism around having to make sure every person ive ever been close to understands how much i have loved and cared about them and making sure they dont feel guilt- which is a problem i have that has hurt me more than its helped me but what else can i do. my family's 64-87 now

"you wont feel happy or at peace until you cut off your family" is such a weird thing to say to someone because family isnt like an abusive partner or a bad friend, its deeply complicated and unfortunately i do very much love my family despite how bizarre my relationship with my mom is

being talkative and fidgety because i have to get up in 4 hours for a 10 hour roadtrip to north carolina

hearing this live made me genuinely tear up youtu.be/s0GQxLWlzyQ?...

im an old synth 60s vocal harmony guy so i think pretty much everyone i listen to specifically for compositional/atmospheric ques is gone now. stelvio cipriani and michel legrand... OH suzanne ciani i saw her live last month duh LOL

but i really enjoy the progressions in it and would frequently listen to the soundtrack while i would wait at the staten island ferry terminal here in NYC during morning work commutes. its where my album planning came from, the music kept me calm since i suffer from sensory overload a lot

thank you! :3 the libidine tracks are their own interpretations of the same chord progression- azure is the most direct cover while violet/blue/ultramarine/cyan are more interpretive. its from a 1979 italian erotic film so the soundtrack does have a good amount of moaning on it- hence the title lol

your words always mean so much to me, including the ones you sent to me just now! no one sees it but i usually show my gf and closest friends the nice things people say to me because i get emails from time to time from a couple of other people. i dont want anyone to worry im always thrilled by it

thank you! :3

maybe its time to use discord

hit bit my ankles the entire time hes a terrible helper 😭

thank u my new activity is filling out this large book i got from five below. big things happening in the studio

thank you! shes doing incredibly well despite how intense it is