Happy birthday! ^-^

Embrace sluttery in public ^_-

Be kinder to yourself.. You made a thing! So even if the rest of the day wasn't great, this bit was. You took back control of the day and created something out of nowhere. ^-^

*whack you over the head with a conveniently-placed horsie-dong* Draw it, then post it! ^-^

It is a normal reaction, there is nothing wrong with you, it will pass. Don't try to think your way out of it, acknowledge that the feelings are there and let them pass through you.

Kick its ass back by doing high-energy activities! (conversely, if anxiety is the problem: low energy activities)

I can't tell if you are surrounded by the worst people, or if maybe anxiety about it made you mistake them noticing something unexpected for a bad reaction..

But in either case, that is absolutely nothing you should be hiding. You fought death and you won, and you have a scar to prove it ^-^

There is nothing there to feel ashamed of or hide.. Sounds like anxiety has been lying to you to keep itself around.

Nobody worth anyone's time is going to react badly to it.