which is also why it's{text,post} so yappy at times , because moI really does want her intents clear and to be understood since the yap has been about moIself x3{xD // not 3 times}

and understandable to moI oomfs

some context info that's too important can be deep inside multiple context blocks but moI is learning where and not where is more helpful to use them (it's situational and per person and moI is mostly talking to herself but also keeping in mind this yap should hopefully be able to be legible

it can help (it's helped moI) to write to herself on discord where the mark down "|| meow ||" makes meow invisible until clicked , since that context block was so big we{moI} used four brackets {{{{}}}} to try to section{compartmentalize} it off for better digestion

them , she feels like she's understanding and listening SO much more intensely , instead of just hearing

hi reader if you just got lost , there was a massive{big} explanation just like "{big}" , moIs calling that a context block , almost like pc code language it just explains intent but can b LONG

moI understands why talking in the 3rd person wouldn't work for many ppl , she also gets why it might help others similar to herself,, like moI didn't know a month ago she'd be speaking in the 3rd person and feeling fully ASSOSIATED , not disasosiated like how moI would feel before}}}}

the same with moIs using outside of dis context block,, this shows how intent can be hidden without onesself knowing , something moI was a Lot less aware of wen she couldn't see ^herself^ as ^herself^ all of her{us} as one ,

this whole experience of 'finding' moIself and learning to utilize the 3rd person has made moI feel a lot more like she understands the humans in her life when she's talking with{{{{not to, meaning AT, but moI thinks 'to' might be shortening of TOgether which would mean "with"

a "cherry on top" feeling

{like a computer that won't turn on} , if a human understood it as that it would made moI feel MISunderstood{not understood}, moI splitting that last word into a deeper thought wasn't necessary for the 3rd person{moI} to do but she felt it would tie the thought train together ,

as ; because moI wants to be understood , and it'd be one thing if someone kidna understood "broken" as moIs meaning of split into more 🌺 brand new 🌺 {flowers mean positive because moI likes flowers} pieces but it'd be another thing if someone read broken and (to moI, MIS)understood it as "broken"

to moI this shows that "broken" in this sense means to moI negative , but that the original use of broken meant the opposite of negative , not particularly specifically POSITIVE , but specifically the opposite of negative was moI true intent and hope other humans would read the 'original' "broken"

"broken"{ruined, picture frame glass shatter}

the subtext moI can see much more clearly is a subset of feelings that might {is in this case} attached to memories like when moI accidentally broke the glass in a picture frame that was a VRChat photo with moI and her friends ..

a mathematical way , like how in moI previous post the word "broken" was explained in brackets that moI intent with the word broken meant split into pieces, broken down into more layers, furthermore "//" was one last split to FURTHER MORE say what moI DIDNT mean , the opposite being ....

moI can sense her intent and ask herself about the words she's saying/thinking as she's saying them much easier which feels to moI like it was always meant to be here / feel like this ;; when writing to moIself that newfound awareness of intent can be broken{split into pieces //not ruined} in almost

moIs much more able to write what she means because her first an second person can communicate{information, not meaning language fully} then the 3rd person{moI} 'hears' the first two ('persons'{"'p'ov"}) and just like in dis post moI can break down her intent of meaning like in (parenthesis) ezier!!

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