i'm iffy when it comes to piracy of art especially by smaller artists, but I do prefer it as an option over spotify

at least apple music pays their artists an acceptable amount per stream

If he shut the doors of the house of mourning against me, I would come back again and again and beg to be admitted, so that I might share in what I was entitled to share in. If he thought me unworthy, unfit to weep with him, I should feel it as the most poignant humiliation.

Oscar Wilde

well the way I see it is these two possibilities if I don't:

1. I get my Bachelor
2. I crash and burn before I can even get close

I see option 2 as more likely tbh