Also goddamn I wish I had an appetite today

I just wish I was fucking normal. Why the fuck do I have to be like this. Why am I so drained still while spending time with people I love. I feel like shit and I feel worse cuz I feel like shit around people that I wanna be happy around. But I feel like all positive emotions are blocked rn.

All of that to say today hasn't been much better, and I am so exhausted and drained still from that meltdown. Like, 24 hours later im still drained from it. I dunno when I'll be back to normal. Im paying the emotional toll I always pay after meltdowns and it sucks ass.

Unrelated, but I started going to the gym again this week. I am sore as fuck but being femme and buff is fun.

Enjoy, lesbians.

I can only "At least I look cute today!" my way through today so much