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agensi kebanyakan gaya.

even if he's the one who die first, when the time finally comes, he would be free. he wouldn't cry anymore. he wouldn't need to wait for tio to come home anymore.

but it's all over now? what could he do to change it? theres no thing called 'dicorce' bc he still have a son and he didnt want to be apart with his own dad.

funny bc aven's also married with someone else. it's all no use.

cae closed his eyes: he just needed to wait until one of them to die.

in his dream, he saw them still being together and his husband wasn't tio, but the blonde man. cae felt something weighing his heart, the what ifs keep coming back to back.

he wanted to be with aven, not tio. he wanted to run, instead of crying like a pathetic.

until one day, when cae was feeling so down, he woke up and found himself crying. there was no tio besides him, the man might came home late as usual.

cae laughed.

he saw aven in his dream.

all he could do is to support himself, writing on his phone's Journal App. he's still doing his job as tio's partner, but just for formalities. the couple also still sleeping on the same bed, but they hardly talked to each other.

days becoming so suffocating to cae's throat. he's keeping everything from his own fam, even his own twin sister.

cae wanted to die. he's also unemployed btw since the marriage; all of his friends were having their own life and cae didnt want to bother them with his suffering.

tio often mad at him, his words were rude and hurting him. the man came home very late every night, sometimes he's also drunk. tio hardly texted him. they didnt talk that much at home either.

yet 5 years later, tio slowly became... different and cae found it difficult for him. he didnt enjoy his times with ratio anymore, now all the man could do is making him crying alone. cae kind of feel... depressed. he wanted to go out, he felt imprisoned, he couldnt be himself.

they adopted a son. they lived a happy life together as a family. theres nothing wrong with their marriage, although cae and tio fought a lot since they dont really have things in common: hobbies, ambition, habits, circle of friends, way of thinking.

cae thought, he's old now he shouldn't be playing around anymore and marry someone. stelle also suggested him to stop dating ppl.

but actually... none of them—cae and tio—loved each other. the marriage was just for biological and social needs.

what if aven never found out? what if aven forgave him and they would have been stayed together? years after years, he graduated from college, got job; at the period, cae dated many men and women

until cae ended up marrying a doctor who's 10 years older than him, Ratio.

crying on his father, welt. but cae couldnt do anything, it was all over and it was all his fault: cae cheated with someone else.

both of them continued their own life without hearing abt each other since. cae lived his life with loneliness and regrets. what if he never cheated?

Agak aneh karena seperti lompat.

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