It was very beautiful, I loved how you used colors

I felt sick, cried a lot and had the worst crisis I could have at work, and he was there for me

I don't know why I insist on my life until now, maybe because I'm a stupid child who hopes that everything will get better

Yesterday for me was my last piece of ground giving way, and I no longer know which direction I intend to take

AND FUCK DO YOU SEE HOW PROBLEMATIC THIS IS, and I have no idea when you'll see this, but I still write here as if I'm talking to you

And now even that friend of mine who I've never seen in my life knows everything I outburst here, he knows even before you do

I always told you that you knew what you were doing, you know my traumas, you knew that I went into panic just thinking about it, but that didn't change anything

And no one could think about what I saw, (joke) you weren't banned and now in addition to being disposable, replaced, I'm also feeling betrayed

With your friends and not with me, and yesterday I brought it back. And I don't even know if I'm talking about something, I'm just confused and I'm I'm probably not saying anything that makes sense

I can't come home without putting it out

I feel like trash, excluded by my family and substituted by everyone, And I'm afraid you'll replace me too

I was scared to ask you to play now because the first time I tried you gave me a giant lecture about how you had bought the computer to play..

I trust you and I don't want to lose you, I don't want to put pressure on you because of sexuality because I haven't understood myself for a while either, And I didn't want to and didn't even intend to tell you that way. I just despaired at you in the courtyard of my condominium and..

A but do you think or are you?

I DON'T KNOW, I just feel like this and this is something I've been trying to talk to you about for a while but I don't know and I didn't even know how and now you're going to find out here And now I don't know what face I'm going to look at you with because...