On May 27th 2016 I was hospitalized & detoxed from months of meth, booze and pills.
But my life was spared. Everyday since I’ve shared my gratitudes to keep me present, accountable, and sober.
Tues. am waking without dread, no story to clean up from the night before. Grateful for a job where I’m trusted with real responsibility, for the dogs’ early-morning chaos, not having to perform for anyone anymore. LA light creeping in, cold brew—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Tues. am waking without dread, no story to clean up from the night before. Grateful for a job where I’m trusted with real responsibility, for the dogs’ early-morning chaos, not having to perform for anyone anymore. LA light creeping in, cold brew—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Another mon—sober in my own bed, easing into the week with a calm I never used to have. Grateful for the rain, a car that starts, a job where I’m trusted, the ability to meet the day without 100 forms of fear. AA keeps me right-sized, our dogs. A life beyond my wildest dreams.
Another mon—sober in my own bed, easing into the week with a calm I never used to have. Grateful for the rain, a car that starts, a job where I’m trusted, the ability to meet the day without 100 forms of fear. AA keeps me right-sized, our dogs. A life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun. mornings: slow, steady & sober.
Getting to see Wicked today. Thanksgiving pies ordered, a warm house, an able body & AA principles that keep me grounded. A rock bottom that gave me the gift of desperation. Getting to enjoy the dogs, Walker—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun. mornings: slow, steady & sober.
Getting to see Wicked today. Thanksgiving pies ordered, a warm house, an able body & AA principles that keep me grounded. A rock bottom that gave me the gift of desperation. Getting to enjoy the dogs, Walker—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sat. am sober, grateful I slept in—much-needed rest & recharge. A warm house, able body—AA reminders to stay honest, willing, right-sized—show up even when its uncomfortable. Bronx, Brooklyn & Walker. Blood family, chosen family—getting to enjoy life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sat. am sober, grateful I slept in—much-needed rest & recharge. A warm house, able body—AA reminders to stay honest, willing, right-sized—show up even when its uncomfortable. Bronx, Brooklyn & Walker. Blood family, chosen family—getting to enjoy life beyond my wildest dreams.
Fri. AM. Sober, grateful for the much-needed rain & warm house to wake up in. An able body to carry me, AA principles that keep me right-sized—willingness to show up. Bronx & Brooklyn, work that keeps me sharp, a car that gets me where I need. Life beyond my wildest dreams.
Fri. AM. Sober, grateful for the much-needed rain & warm house to wake up in. An able body to carry me, AA principles that keep me right-sized—willingness to show up. Bronx & Brooklyn, work that keeps me sharp, a car that gets me where I need. Life beyond my wildest dreams.
Thurs. am sober—grateful for a quiet start. The tools AA gave me—patience, humility, doing the next right thing. Bronx & Brooklyn settling into routines, work keeping me sharp, a car that gets me everywhere I need to go. A home I can care for—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Thurs. am sober—grateful for a quiet start. The tools AA gave me—patience, humility, doing the next right thing. Bronx & Brooklyn settling into routines, work keeping me sharp, a car that gets me everywhere I need to go. A home I can care for—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Wed am. sober. Sunshine after rain, a clean house—holiday rhythm settling in. Grateful for AA principles that still shape me: honesty, willingness, pausing, staying right-sized & focused—not spinning out. For a job that keeps me interested and a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Wed am. sober. Sunshine after rain, a clean house—holiday rhythm settling in. Grateful for AA principles that still shape me: honesty, willingness, pausing, staying right-sized & focused—not spinning out. For a job that keeps me interested and a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Tues. am—waking up instead of coming to. Grateful for the rain we needed, slowing everything down for a minute. A job that’s always interesting. My willingness to show up for people, dogs snoring in the next room, a healthy body, & a life that’s well beyond my wildest dreams.
Tues. am—waking up instead of coming to. Grateful for the rain we needed, slowing everything down for a minute. A job that’s always interesting. My willingness to show up for people, dogs snoring in the next room, a healthy body, & a life that’s well beyond my wildest dreams.
Mon am sober, grateful for a body that’s healthy, a car that gets me where I need to go & a job where I can actually give instead of just take. For seeing past myself—showing up even when it’s uncomfortable. My dogs—a life that keeps growing—it’s all beyond my wildest dreams.
Mon am sober, grateful for a body that’s healthy, a car that gets me where I need to go & a job where I can actually give instead of just take. For seeing past myself—showing up even when it’s uncomfortable. My dogs—a life that keeps growing—it’s all beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun. am sober. Grateful for the principles that rebuilt me—honesty, willingness, accountability. Surviving a gnarly rock bottom—Mission detoxed me, Van Ness humbled me, Mariposa ushered me back to reality. Life with my dogs, my writing, homeownership—beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun. am sober. Grateful for the principles that rebuilt me—honesty, willingness, accountability. Surviving a gnarly rock bottom—Mission detoxed me, Van Ness humbled me, Mariposa ushered me back to reality. Life with my dogs, my writing, homeownership—beyond my wildest dreams.
Sat. AM. Sober & grounded. Grateful for family, for the chance to lead with kindness when it matters most. Bronx & Brooklyn, writing that feels right, a job that keeps me steady. AA principles—sharing my story, showing up even when it’s uncomfortable. One honest day at a time.
Sat. AM. Sober & grounded. Grateful for family, for the chance to lead with kindness when it matters most. Bronx & Brooklyn, writing that feels right, a job that keeps me steady. AA principles—sharing my story, showing up even when it’s uncomfortable. One honest day at a time.
Fri. a.m. Woke sober, grateful for the people I get to love—hold close. Thinking of family today—the fragility of life. Grateful for the tools recovery gave me—show up with compassion. Walker’s birthday, my dogs, writing that keeps me steady, my home. One honest day at a time.
Fri. a.m. Woke sober, grateful for the people I get to love—hold close. Thinking of family today—the fragility of life. Grateful for the tools recovery gave me—show up with compassion. Walker’s birthday, my dogs, writing that keeps me steady, my home. One honest day at a time.
Thurs. am—grateful to be self-supporting by my own contributions. For healthy relationships—things I never had when I was running. For my home, my dogs & Walker. A power greater than me—frees me of the bondage of self & restores me to sanity. My life—beyond my wildest dreams.
Thurs. am—grateful to be self-supporting by my own contributions. For healthy relationships—things I never had when I was running. For my home, my dogs & Walker. A power greater than me—frees me of the bondage of self & restores me to sanity. My life—beyond my wildest dreams.
Wed. am—grateful for slow mornings—time to re-rack. A car that starts, bills paid—music. Bronx’s snore, Brooklyn’s chaos, a backyard that feels like home. For ordinary days that used to feel impossible. A power greater than myself, giving me a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Wed. am—grateful for slow mornings—time to re-rack. A car that starts, bills paid—music. Bronx’s snore, Brooklyn’s chaos, a backyard that feels like home. For ordinary days that used to feel impossible. A power greater than myself, giving me a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Tue am. Grateful to wake up sober again. For a job that keeps evolving—reminds me I’m capable. Bronx, Brooklyn learning the ropes, Walker’s bday week. For AA principals that taught me to lead by serving. For the quiet proof that recovery works—life rebuilt from the inside out.
Tue am. Grateful to wake up sober again. For a job that keeps evolving—reminds me I’m capable. Bronx, Brooklyn learning the ropes, Walker’s bday week. For AA principals that taught me to lead by serving. For the quiet proof that recovery works—life rebuilt from the inside out.
Mon. am—grateful to start the week with a clear mind & new title—Chief of Staff—wow. For work that challenges me, people who trust me to lead.
The dogs, Walker—a home that feels earned. AA, where I learned to show up. For the life that keeps getting bigger, one day at a time.
Mon. am—grateful to start the week with a clear mind & new title—Chief of Staff—wow. For work that challenges me, people who trust me to lead.
The dogs, Walker—a home that feels earned. AA, where I learned to show up. For the life that keeps getting bigger, one day at a time.
Sun. AM. Woke up sober, grateful for the steps. For the reminder to pause & get quiet before reacting. Honesty, willingness, letting go of results. The newcomers who remind me where I came from. A power greater than myself—I’m alive and living a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun. AM. Woke up sober, grateful for the steps. For the reminder to pause & get quiet before reacting. Honesty, willingness, letting go of results. The newcomers who remind me where I came from. A power greater than myself—I’m alive and living a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sat. AM. Woke sober & healthy enough to keep up with two dogs. Grateful for time at home, calm that comes with structure—life that once felt out of reach. Mariposa House, helping me start over & a power greater than myself. I’m alive & living a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sat. AM. Woke sober & healthy enough to keep up with two dogs. Grateful for time at home, calm that comes with structure—life that once felt out of reach. Mariposa House, helping me start over & a power greater than myself. I’m alive & living a life beyond my wildest dreams.
Fri AM—Woke sober, safe—with the tools I need to stay that way. Grateful to be employable. Healthy, able, living in a home thats mine. My car, Bronx & Brook. A god of my own understanding, relieves me of the bondage of self, restores me to sanity—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Fri AM—Woke sober, safe—with the tools I need to stay that way. Grateful to be employable. Healthy, able, living in a home thats mine. My car, Bronx & Brook. A god of my own understanding, relieves me of the bondage of self, restores me to sanity—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Thurs. am—grateful for quiet & darkness before the day starts. Mission Community Hostpital, Van Ness, Mariposa—the places that taught me how to live, not just survive. Friends who trust me again, work that keeps me steady—granting me a life beyond anything I could dream up.
Thurs. am—grateful for quiet & darkness before the day starts. Mission Community Hostpital, Van Ness, Mariposa—the places that taught me how to live, not just survive. Friends who trust me again, work that keeps me steady—granting me a life beyond anything I could dream up.
Wed. am—grateful for growth—new responsibilities at work & the trust that comes with them. Bronx is tolerant while Brooklyn learns her place in the pack. AA meetings reminding me where I came from. LA where I learned how to rebuild. Showing up to life beyond my wildest dreams.
Wed. am—grateful for growth—new responsibilities at work & the trust that comes with them. Bronx is tolerant while Brooklyn learns her place in the pack. AA meetings reminding me where I came from. LA where I learned how to rebuild. Showing up to life beyond my wildest dreams.
Tues.—grateful for early quiet, cold brew, Bronx at my feet. Writing leads that feel promising—work that still keeps me learning. For the structure I built at Mission, Van Ness, Mariposa—making all this possible. Grateful for momentum, direction—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Tues.—grateful for early quiet, cold brew, Bronx at my feet. Writing leads that feel promising—work that still keeps me learning. For the structure I built at Mission, Van Ness, Mariposa—making all this possible. Grateful for momentum, direction—life beyond my wildest dreams.
Mon.—grateful for a smooth pack walk with Brooklyn & Bronx—finally finding our rhythm. New opportunities with work & writing—reminds me to stay focused. Holiday prep feels lighter this year. Another clear morning, another chance to keep building life beyond my wildest dreams.
Mon.—grateful for a smooth pack walk with Brooklyn & Bronx—finally finding our rhythm. New opportunities with work & writing—reminds me to stay focused. Holiday prep feels lighter this year. Another clear morning, another chance to keep building life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sun.—grateful to wake up clear, no wreckage to clean. New-day light—coffee in hand. For time to write, to reset the house, to take Brooklyn on her first real walk around the block. The quiet strength recovery gives me—showing up, staying honest, remembering how far I’ve come.
Sun.—grateful to wake up clear, no wreckage to clean. New-day light—coffee in hand. For time to write, to reset the house, to take Brooklyn on her first real walk around the block. The quiet strength recovery gives me—showing up, staying honest, remembering how far I’ve come.
Sat.—grateful for slow mornings—small resets. For a work week that challenged me—reminded me how to take advantage of opportunities for growth. For time at home—dogs, writing, recovery—the reminder that stability isn’t boring when it’s hard won. Life beyond my wildest dreams.
Sat.—grateful for slow mornings—small resets. For a work week that challenged me—reminded me how to take advantage of opportunities for growth. For time at home—dogs, writing, recovery—the reminder that stability isn’t boring when it’s hard won. Life beyond my wildest dreams.