seriously what is it about this guy. he beat-boxes. why do i want him so bad

nothing happened. this was most likely the last time i see him in the next few years. i am so mad at myself for not initiating something but im a coward and also he would have if he wanted. every fibre in my body tells me to just text him rn asking to hook up. KILL ME i dont know how this shit works

we met in a group of 4, and after the other two left he lingered and then suggested we go drinking together somewhere. am i stupid to think we were gonna fuck? i swear the air was thick with tension. this shit cant be a one sided sensation

now 6 years later im in tokyo again, hit up all my friends to meet up, him too, and the second i see him again its over. i feel so stupid.