I want to “participate in my recovery” as she calls it, but I don’t know how. I don’t know how to challenge these thoughts.

(4/4)

#disabled #disability

I feel stuck in my day-to-day life and have a hard time envisioning my future. It is hard for me to convince my brain that I have more control over my life than I think. She feels I am putting up roadblocks where I feel these “roadblocks” are just the reality of my situation.

(3/?)

But for the past year, it seems like we’re spinning wheels in our sessions. She wants me to remain, “Open, present, and curious” when it comes to challenging my negative thought patterns, but I just find it so difficult.

(2/?)

It was a pretty slow week. Ava was mostly on the Ashley train all week. She just hates Mickey that much.

Vinny got lucky he won BBB, though cause he barely campaigned to Ava.

I think she stays.

Same. Unless my name was Kaitlyn Herman.

And the HOH can’t refuse the deal, right?

Well, they have to setup the Veto prayer circle….😫

He got Jimmy BIG MAD when he wouldn't sit down, so I’d say yes.

Yeah, a season with a bunch of people begging to be the one evicted each week. Sounds great…

I wish that Kelley had won the power just so if it’s Tucker, he intentionally throws it to Keanu to get her out.

The fish: So THIS is water!

Now imagine if we got to see all this play out on the feeds. I know, wild idea.