When you compare regret rates to suicide rates i can only come to one conclusion: if you oppose your child transitioning you are saying you'd rather your kid be dead than transgender.

Got my passport with the wrong gender marker. Not surprised just disappointed.

Some lady came into the library and complained about a man using the women's bathroom. When my very sweet coworker explained we allow people to use the restroom that best aligns with their gender, the lady said, "It's federal law. We won." Four more years of this even in liberal land.

Talked with my mom and, describing why I hadn't called her, realized that it has been A Lot (TM). Going to take this week as an opportunity to be kind to myself and really rest between the few chores that need doing. I think some silly mischief is long overdue. 🦊🤪

Loki is unimpressed with all of the human flailing.

Feeling better today. Hope is staring at me saying 'bout time.

Meanwhile, my cat wants to snuggle and who am I to say no?

Recognizing today that I am not okay and not able to muster a "but I will be." Reminding myself that some days it is okay just to survive.

I do have good work to do, but it doesn't have to be Right Now.

Feeling this tonight:

"Why can't we give love that one more chance?
'Cause love's such an old-fashioned word and love dares you to care for the people on the edge of the night and love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves.
This is our last dance
This is ourselves under pressure"

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't absolutely terrified of being found out I'm an imposter. Still, sitting down with fellow queer folks with a goal of making the world a little better is worth it. Thousands of people have done this so we can too.

I'm gonna try for my passport before the x gets taken away, but we'll see. If the answer is no, well.... I sued the state of Oklahoma and I will sue the federal government if I have to.

One step closer to starting my nonprofit. Sooooo many steps to go. Still, if I want to feel safer I need to push for safety for all the queers in my small corner of the world. Slogging through paperwork is a small price to pay for community.

My kiddo asked how I deal with the quieter transphobes around me. A woman changed lanes in the swimming pool when she figured out I was trans. I told him I didn't notice which is depressingly true. I feel for him as he navigates being trans in this weird time.

Downloading all of my photos then I'm shutting down my Meta accounts today. The few people I follow on there are not worth my mental health.

I'm trying to channel some activist energy today but it is hard first thing in the morning. Maybe I'll take a nap then destroy capitalism.

"I'd found myself becoming more immobile when I think a little girl in the world can't do anything...If I have a care in the world I have a gift to bring"

Today has been hard after hearing about a genuine, kind soul dying because the system failed him over and over again. He was houseless but never homeless because he made everyone feel like he was home. Prince of Fools, defender of the library and friend, rest in the warmth you deserve.