Cuz uh last time I checked, it's a miserable time to be alive right now. And probably just gets harder from here. So Im gonna need some vice if not alcohol to cope lmao

And now that I just... do it. Im like cool so I guess I just have to exist with constant anxiety of the future if not those two things. I just want a break without feeling the need to get high. Which is probably the source of my issues, but how do you expect me to function 8 hrs a day otherwise?

How was this 7 days ago already

Was gonna watch it but forgot im broke and idk how to pirate shit without downloading a virus lmao

Therapy is gonna be a doozey tomorrow.

I wish I wanted to hurt myself but I truly dont. I just feel so defeated and ready to throw in the towel with every relationship i have and go silent for another year or two. I wish i wanted to even talk to anyone. I just want to lay down. Forever.