Biting my fucking furniture and foaming at the mouth

I think I just need a sexual outlet. But I also don't really have a means of finding someone who wants to fuck, or exchange nudes, or like, anything rn!! So I'm stuck yearning/infatuated with someone who I, like, barely see and who is NOT into me. Aaaaaaaaaaa!!!

Like, is there a level of misery bc someone clearly isn't interested that gives you the ick? Or am I just kinda stuck like this

And like… if anyone from the first group told me they wanted to hook up? I’d be over the moon. Will it happen? Probably not! But one can dream ig

Like, rn there’re three groups of people in my life, sexually-speaking:

People I am into but who are probably NOT into me in the same way

People I am not particularly into but who ARE probably into me in some way

My partner, who I love, but who doesn’t have as intense a libido as I do

By which I mean I want to rail someone, etc etc

I'm not gonna worry about it, but if they think it's weird or whatever and they don't care to talk to me again, so be it! I bare a piece of my soul to you and you don't want it? Oh well!

Jokes on me, no hot water bc I did dishes earlier 🙃

(Lying)