Dream ✨
@novasandnightmares.bsky.social
was @starsanddreams on tumblr but got banned
more than a decade in arfid & sh recovery and counting… was years clean as an adult but this is what happens when you relapse ❤️🩹
no stats here. i don't want to encourage anyone to hurt.
FR/EN
more than a decade in arfid & sh recovery and counting… was years clean as an adult but this is what happens when you relapse ❤️🩹
no stats here. i don't want to encourage anyone to hurt.
FR/EN
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🌟NovasAndNightmares intro post🌟
- name: dream
- pronouns: none, anything is fine
- age: internet old :/
- arfid dx 10 years old, history of b/p sh & 🚬 but in #recovery
- i'll tw what you need… don't use me as an excuse to hurt yourself
- dni: minors, thinspo/fatspo accounts, racists, transphobes
- name: dream
- pronouns: none, anything is fine
- age: internet old :/
- arfid dx 10 years old, history of b/p sh & 🚬 but in #recovery
- i'll tw what you need… don't use me as an excuse to hurt yourself
- dni: minors, thinspo/fatspo accounts, racists, transphobes
currently eating: mini bagels with peanut butter. my brain is telling me i can feel the fat growing in my thighs, but a) there's nothing wrong with fat, everyone has it and b) that's literally insane
December 30, 2025 at 1:42 PM
currently eating: mini bagels with peanut butter. my brain is telling me i can feel the fat growing in my thighs, but a) there's nothing wrong with fat, everyone has it and b) that's literally insane
cw self harm/ocd/bfrb
i need to be perfect! i say, as i tear holes into my skin
i need to be perfect! i say, as i tear holes into my skin
December 30, 2025 at 3:10 AM
cw self harm/ocd/bfrb
i need to be perfect! i say, as i tear holes into my skin
i need to be perfect! i say, as i tear holes into my skin
currently eating: (vegetarian) beans and toast 🇬🇧
December 29, 2025 at 11:23 PM
currently eating: (vegetarian) beans and toast 🇬🇧
life has mysterious ways of teaching me lessons because i did end up being sick :( i'm not sure if i willed it upon myself or if there was truly something off with the food
yesterday i ate vegan food for lunch and dinner with a friend. i'm feeling nervous about it because since there were fake meats and cheeses, i basically don't know what i was eating. but i also understand my feeling sick is more likely to be from arfid than from the food.
December 29, 2025 at 7:47 PM
life has mysterious ways of teaching me lessons because i did end up being sick :( i'm not sure if i willed it upon myself or if there was truly something off with the food
yesterday i ate vegan food for lunch and dinner with a friend. i'm feeling nervous about it because since there were fake meats and cheeses, i basically don't know what i was eating. but i also understand my feeling sick is more likely to be from arfid than from the food.
December 29, 2025 at 5:09 PM
yesterday i ate vegan food for lunch and dinner with a friend. i'm feeling nervous about it because since there were fake meats and cheeses, i basically don't know what i was eating. but i also understand my feeling sick is more likely to be from arfid than from the food.
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gotta keep reminding myself that there is no "good enough" with this disorder, every goal is gonna keep moving until i cant make it anymore
December 29, 2025 at 3:57 AM
gotta keep reminding myself that there is no "good enough" with this disorder, every goal is gonna keep moving until i cant make it anymore
i miss birthdays when you were a kid. you would have cake + presents. this year i got slippers, a post card, and called an oldhead 😭
December 28, 2025 at 1:17 AM
i miss birthdays when you were a kid. you would have cake + presents. this year i got slippers, a post card, and called an oldhead 😭
people keep asking me where i want to go out to eat
yeah… i think you know my feelings 🥲
yeah… i think you know my feelings 🥲
December 27, 2025 at 7:36 PM
people keep asking me where i want to go out to eat
yeah… i think you know my feelings 🥲
yeah… i think you know my feelings 🥲
currently eating: a slice of homemade pie. with coffee. AKA the best, most indulgent breakfast ever.
thoughts of my stomach or the scale can't fuck with me today. i am more powerful. even if i can't be as happy as i want to be, i will still try to enjoy my birthday.
thoughts of my stomach or the scale can't fuck with me today. i am more powerful. even if i can't be as happy as i want to be, i will still try to enjoy my birthday.
December 27, 2025 at 6:16 PM
currently eating: a slice of homemade pie. with coffee. AKA the best, most indulgent breakfast ever.
thoughts of my stomach or the scale can't fuck with me today. i am more powerful. even if i can't be as happy as i want to be, i will still try to enjoy my birthday.
thoughts of my stomach or the scale can't fuck with me today. i am more powerful. even if i can't be as happy as i want to be, i will still try to enjoy my birthday.
i hope you are all doing well
December 27, 2025 at 4:35 AM
i hope you are all doing well
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Hello! I am a transexual man i'm looking in the market for a new binder but I'm not sure of a good brand. I am a D cup or slightly larger in size, but most brands have failed to actually flatten my chest enough. Anyone know bran's that work for larger chest sizes?
#trans #binder #help
#trans #binder #help
December 26, 2025 at 7:39 PM
the holiday sweet of pretzels with chocolate and a pecan on top should not count as a sweet… let me eat it guilt free 😅
December 26, 2025 at 6:01 PM
the holiday sweet of pretzels with chocolate and a pecan on top should not count as a sweet… let me eat it guilt free 😅
as far as my last post, no, there is not a "good enough" for your disorder. it will always want more and it is not afraid to take it from you. it is not afraid of anything. it's very hard to remember this at some times, so, i want to remind myself.
#recovery
#recovery
December 26, 2025 at 6:31 AM
as far as my last post, no, there is not a "good enough" for your disorder. it will always want more and it is not afraid to take it from you. it is not afraid of anything. it's very hard to remember this at some times, so, i want to remind myself.
#recovery
#recovery
cw self harm (bfrb/ocd)
the nail i half ripped off is growing back unevenly, but it is growing back! there's the one normal side and the rest of it looks quite bad to others but inspiring to me. the hold the compulsions have on me is as bad as the depression, anxiety, and arfid, i swear
the nail i half ripped off is growing back unevenly, but it is growing back! there's the one normal side and the rest of it looks quite bad to others but inspiring to me. the hold the compulsions have on me is as bad as the depression, anxiety, and arfid, i swear
December 26, 2025 at 6:14 AM
cw self harm (bfrb/ocd)
the nail i half ripped off is growing back unevenly, but it is growing back! there's the one normal side and the rest of it looks quite bad to others but inspiring to me. the hold the compulsions have on me is as bad as the depression, anxiety, and arfid, i swear
the nail i half ripped off is growing back unevenly, but it is growing back! there's the one normal side and the rest of it looks quite bad to others but inspiring to me. the hold the compulsions have on me is as bad as the depression, anxiety, and arfid, i swear
one of the worst feelings is bringing food to your mouth and knowing even before you bite down that you cannot* eat it. brain says no.
*you can, it's just stressful for 20mins afterward
*you can, it's just stressful for 20mins afterward
December 25, 2025 at 9:42 PM
one of the worst feelings is bringing food to your mouth and knowing even before you bite down that you cannot* eat it. brain says no.
*you can, it's just stressful for 20mins afterward
*you can, it's just stressful for 20mins afterward
merry Christmas everyone who celebrates, and happy day off to those who don't
December 25, 2025 at 6:37 PM
merry Christmas everyone who celebrates, and happy day off to those who don't
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Everyone have a wonderful holiday and remember memories are more important than calories but stay safe of course!! Love you all!
December 24, 2025 at 9:12 PM
Everyone have a wonderful holiday and remember memories are more important than calories but stay safe of course!! Love you all!
ik ppl talk about hitting a flow state of the disorder but consider: hitting a flow state of being full + sober + filled with confidence
December 25, 2025 at 4:17 AM
ik ppl talk about hitting a flow state of the disorder but consider: hitting a flow state of being full + sober + filled with confidence
my relatives are all too smart to have a working scale in their house :):
December 24, 2025 at 11:42 PM
my relatives are all too smart to have a working scale in their house :):
stupid scale wasn't working 😢😢😢😢😢
December 24, 2025 at 9:57 PM
stupid scale wasn't working 😢😢😢😢😢
currently eating: egg salad and pumpernickel. outing myself as a white person 😔
December 24, 2025 at 9:16 PM
currently eating: egg salad and pumpernickel. outing myself as a white person 😔
currently eating: banana 🍌 i'm not fasting!
December 24, 2025 at 7:17 PM
currently eating: banana 🍌 i'm not fasting!
a cat on my tummy so i can't go for the scale. a beautiful message from 🩵 in my notifs. i think i will be okay
December 24, 2025 at 5:32 AM
a cat on my tummy so i can't go for the scale. a beautiful message from 🩵 in my notifs. i think i will be okay
just got back from getting sandwiches. my brain was more than half convinced it was utterly disgusting garbage i was chewing, but i really needed to eat something… even though i ate a meal today i almost passed out while driving with the kids in the back seat… my brain hates me so much :(
December 24, 2025 at 3:08 AM
just got back from getting sandwiches. my brain was more than half convinced it was utterly disgusting garbage i was chewing, but i really needed to eat something… even though i ate a meal today i almost passed out while driving with the kids in the back seat… my brain hates me so much :(
if you ever want a kind word i'm here. if you don't want someone to be nice to you… that makes me sad. i've been there though. let me know what your boundaries are and i'll respect them.
December 23, 2025 at 6:23 PM
if you ever want a kind word i'm here. if you don't want someone to be nice to you… that makes me sad. i've been there though. let me know what your boundaries are and i'll respect them.