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I always think of this imaginary place. A comfort thought. I get flashes of freedom in a home I’ve never lived in. I get flashes of the freedom I’ve always yearned for. Being on a coach with blue light overhead. Being at the airport, away from them. Living alone.
January 27, 2026 at 10:01 PM
I always think of this imaginary place. A comfort thought. I get flashes of freedom in a home I’ve never lived in. I get flashes of the freedom I’ve always yearned for. Being on a coach with blue light overhead. Being at the airport, away from them. Living alone.
I want to rage. I want to scream and yell my thoughts to Allah. Not because I’m mad at Him, but because it’s all a lot to bear for one person. I have so many thoughts and nowhere to put them because they are not resolving. My head hurts from thinking so much, I feel tired from the anxiety of it all.
January 26, 2026 at 11:30 PM
I want to rage. I want to scream and yell my thoughts to Allah. Not because I’m mad at Him, but because it’s all a lot to bear for one person. I have so many thoughts and nowhere to put them because they are not resolving. My head hurts from thinking so much, I feel tired from the anxiety of it all.
My parents lying to families to desperately get me married off is what I hope is the reason why I want Allah to prolong the efforts of me getting married off.
Can never just be happy with just me.
Can never just be happy with just me.
January 26, 2026 at 4:11 PM
My parents lying to families to desperately get me married off is what I hope is the reason why I want Allah to prolong the efforts of me getting married off.
Can never just be happy with just me.
Can never just be happy with just me.
I had a dream about him two days ago. For once, it wasn’t a dream of paranoia. It was a strange form of comfort. There is a man who keeps moving next to me and it’s making me feel antsy. He’s pacing back and forth and because I noticed him, it feels like he was going it on purpose.
January 22, 2026 at 8:05 PM
I had a dream about him two days ago. For once, it wasn’t a dream of paranoia. It was a strange form of comfort. There is a man who keeps moving next to me and it’s making me feel antsy. He’s pacing back and forth and because I noticed him, it feels like he was going it on purpose.
Poppy mentioned she was going to have dinner with her old work friends, Jasmine and Julian.
I smiled slightly, only for a moment. Hearing the similarities of our names, I instantly envisioned myself and X in another life. The one where we still stayed together and fought against the odds.
I smiled slightly, only for a moment. Hearing the similarities of our names, I instantly envisioned myself and X in another life. The one where we still stayed together and fought against the odds.
January 18, 2026 at 2:03 AM
Poppy mentioned she was going to have dinner with her old work friends, Jasmine and Julian.
I smiled slightly, only for a moment. Hearing the similarities of our names, I instantly envisioned myself and X in another life. The one where we still stayed together and fought against the odds.
I smiled slightly, only for a moment. Hearing the similarities of our names, I instantly envisioned myself and X in another life. The one where we still stayed together and fought against the odds.
He has the worst, most horrible mindset about the politic world. When will I move on?
January 16, 2026 at 9:57 PM
He has the worst, most horrible mindset about the politic world. When will I move on?
I have a screening today and I am so scared and nervous because the last time I was here, the woman didn’t listen to me when I said to stop, so I just cried.
January 16, 2026 at 1:16 PM
I have a screening today and I am so scared and nervous because the last time I was here, the woman didn’t listen to me when I said to stop, so I just cried.
Because it’s just sad that I’m 27 living under the reigns of my 73 year old dad, and a mother who resents my entire existence. It’s sad. It’s sad that my dad didn’t want the ‘27’ candle on my birthday cake because he’s ashamed on my age and me being unmarried.
January 10, 2026 at 2:55 PM
Because it’s just sad that I’m 27 living under the reigns of my 73 year old dad, and a mother who resents my entire existence. It’s sad. It’s sad that my dad didn’t want the ‘27’ candle on my birthday cake because he’s ashamed on my age and me being unmarried.
I want one sloppy night. I want one night where I let everything go and do everything I’m not allowed to do. I just want to feel thrill and adrenaline and not have to worry about anything. I just want to be free.
January 10, 2026 at 2:53 PM
I want one sloppy night. I want one night where I let everything go and do everything I’m not allowed to do. I just want to feel thrill and adrenaline and not have to worry about anything. I just want to be free.
I had to force myself to find someone on this Muslim marriage site my dad paid £100 for. Thank God it turns out he’s in Ireland, so my dad said it can’t be and I had to fake being upset about it. He’s pushing me like crazy to marry before I’m 28. I’m 28 in June.
January 10, 2026 at 2:52 PM
I had to force myself to find someone on this Muslim marriage site my dad paid £100 for. Thank God it turns out he’s in Ireland, so my dad said it can’t be and I had to fake being upset about it. He’s pushing me like crazy to marry before I’m 28. I’m 28 in June.
I hope all of these attempts to get me married fails and that I end up 30 years old married to a Bosnian Muslim man who’s cute and I live out my dreams in the beautiful countryside or in some city of Bosnia.
January 10, 2026 at 12:54 PM
I hope all of these attempts to get me married fails and that I end up 30 years old married to a Bosnian Muslim man who’s cute and I live out my dreams in the beautiful countryside or in some city of Bosnia.
This man I have to call my father is a person who I sincerely hope I do not meet in any form in the next life
January 9, 2026 at 10:39 PM
This man I have to call my father is a person who I sincerely hope I do not meet in any form in the next life
Anyway the best love I’ve ever had was with a man I can’t be with in this life nor the next, so yep if I’m going to commit sin then you can’t blame me because I can remember only one time my dad said he was proud of me and PLEASE do not get me started on my mum.
January 9, 2026 at 8:13 PM
Anyway the best love I’ve ever had was with a man I can’t be with in this life nor the next, so yep if I’m going to commit sin then you can’t blame me because I can remember only one time my dad said he was proud of me and PLEASE do not get me started on my mum.
Sometimes I wonder how I managed to fuck up my entire relationship with my faith and then I look at how my parents treat me and it all makes sense. How do you have hope when THAT is the standard set by the two who decided to procreate when they should’ve got a divorce before I was even a thought :)
January 9, 2026 at 8:05 PM
Sometimes I wonder how I managed to fuck up my entire relationship with my faith and then I look at how my parents treat me and it all makes sense. How do you have hope when THAT is the standard set by the two who decided to procreate when they should’ve got a divorce before I was even a thought :)
AHHHH i feel so bad for complaining about Jaq because she did end up thanking me end of the team call and everyone gave a little round of applauses for me on screen 😭🫶🏽
January 8, 2026 at 12:49 PM
AHHHH i feel so bad for complaining about Jaq because she did end up thanking me end of the team call and everyone gave a little round of applauses for me on screen 😭🫶🏽
He was everything he used to be. I thought wrong, I thought things would hit the fan and I’d have a reason to hate him, but it went so well that I want to cry because how the fuck do I leave? It felt like freedom, it felt like love and tenderness. I felt it all all over again.
January 7, 2026 at 7:43 PM
He was everything he used to be. I thought wrong, I thought things would hit the fan and I’d have a reason to hate him, but it went so well that I want to cry because how the fuck do I leave? It felt like freedom, it felt like love and tenderness. I felt it all all over again.
He went out in the storm at 11pm last night to get me meds for my lactose intolerance. If this was vent, I’d choose the pink, flowery emotion.
January 7, 2026 at 6:11 PM
He went out in the storm at 11pm last night to get me meds for my lactose intolerance. If this was vent, I’d choose the pink, flowery emotion.
Genuinely just want Thomas back. He really was my cat of support. I miss him so much. When my heart is heavy from thinking of so many things like today, I really wish he were here.
December 22, 2025 at 10:14 PM
Genuinely just want Thomas back. He really was my cat of support. I miss him so much. When my heart is heavy from thinking of so many things like today, I really wish he were here.
I’m actually shaking because of how scared I was but will I get a sorry? No. Justice isn’t common with me, and God does it on purpose. I don’t question it anymore.
December 22, 2025 at 6:59 PM
I’m actually shaking because of how scared I was but will I get a sorry? No. Justice isn’t common with me, and God does it on purpose. I don’t question it anymore.
I hate when my brother drives like a maniac. Do that shit when you’re in the car by yourself, not when you’ve got passengers in the car. He’s already gotten in an accident bc of his road rage with me and mum in the car, and he doesn’t think for a second that we might still be traumatised from that.
December 22, 2025 at 6:58 PM
I hate when my brother drives like a maniac. Do that shit when you’re in the car by yourself, not when you’ve got passengers in the car. He’s already gotten in an accident bc of his road rage with me and mum in the car, and he doesn’t think for a second that we might still be traumatised from that.
Sandy pisses me off. Who schedules a meeting on a fucking Monday, two days before we break off for the holidays??? And it’s for the exact same thing as what she made me do last time - read out numbers for renewals. If you’re that fucking paranoid, get someone else to do it.
December 22, 2025 at 11:57 AM
Sandy pisses me off. Who schedules a meeting on a fucking Monday, two days before we break off for the holidays??? And it’s for the exact same thing as what she made me do last time - read out numbers for renewals. If you’re that fucking paranoid, get someone else to do it.
I’m also still in shock that we get so many days off for the holidays. 24th of Dec and back to work on 5 Jan. That’s crazy!
December 19, 2025 at 7:47 PM
I’m also still in shock that we get so many days off for the holidays. 24th of Dec and back to work on 5 Jan. That’s crazy!
Irene sent a photo of her nails from the manicure kit I got her. I’m really glad she liked it. I know she’s not my favourite person, but it still makes me happy to know she genuinely liked the gift.
I was worried to get her those gifts, because she previously said that she buys herself gifts
I was worried to get her those gifts, because she previously said that she buys herself gifts
December 19, 2025 at 7:45 PM
Irene sent a photo of her nails from the manicure kit I got her. I’m really glad she liked it. I know she’s not my favourite person, but it still makes me happy to know she genuinely liked the gift.
I was worried to get her those gifts, because she previously said that she buys herself gifts
I was worried to get her those gifts, because she previously said that she buys herself gifts
Also, I got Irene. I got her a drinks embroidered makeup bag and a le mini macaron gel manicure kit. It’s cute, I will get one for myself.
December 17, 2025 at 4:09 PM
Also, I got Irene. I got her a drinks embroidered makeup bag and a le mini macaron gel manicure kit. It’s cute, I will get one for myself.
I always over-commit to things and I’m left exhausted. Yesterday was our Christmas event with over 1.200 people and we had to come in today for the secret Santa. I agreed to meet up today and I just cannot be asked.
December 17, 2025 at 4:06 PM
I always over-commit to things and I’m left exhausted. Yesterday was our Christmas event with over 1.200 people and we had to come in today for the secret Santa. I agreed to meet up today and I just cannot be asked.