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五奇人 & 旧fine | tsumugi aoba ruined my life | mostly sfw but no minors please
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五奇人 & 旧fine | tsumugi aoba ruined my life | mostly sfw but no minors please
https://ntmg8724.carrd.co/
my life is a massive joke but i'm glad the trend of the holidays being absolutely miserable for me continues, wouldn't be christmas if i wasn't sick, in a self deprecating spiral, or dealing with some sort of loss (arguable bc of recent friend stuff but whatever it wasnt recent enough)
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
my life is a massive joke but i'm glad the trend of the holidays being absolutely miserable for me continues, wouldn't be christmas if i wasn't sick, in a self deprecating spiral, or dealing with some sort of loss (arguable bc of recent friend stuff but whatever it wasnt recent enough)
the worst part is that my unemployment should have already been fully paid out but noooooooo for whatever reason they refused to backdate my claim more than 2 months even though the only reason i filed so late was because my account was inaccessible bc someone filed a fraudulent claim with my info
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
the worst part is that my unemployment should have already been fully paid out but noooooooo for whatever reason they refused to backdate my claim more than 2 months even though the only reason i filed so late was because my account was inaccessible bc someone filed a fraudulent claim with my info
all because i don't have my own personal vehicle to travel 30+ minutes to other towns to work in. it is literally not an option and public transportation is a fucking joke here
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
all because i don't have my own personal vehicle to travel 30+ minutes to other towns to work in. it is literally not an option and public transportation is a fucking joke here
ALSO i'm probably gonna be kicked off of unemployment because there is just not enough out there for me to apply to each week. and i especially am not going out of my way to search while sick. but i know they're just gonna tell me i'm an undeserving piece of garbage cheating the system
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
ALSO i'm probably gonna be kicked off of unemployment because there is just not enough out there for me to apply to each week. and i especially am not going out of my way to search while sick. but i know they're just gonna tell me i'm an undeserving piece of garbage cheating the system
on top of this all my mom has been really pissed at me for different things today and managed to make me feel worse by screaming at me and telling me that i act like i'm the only one in the world with problems
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
on top of this all my mom has been really pissed at me for different things today and managed to make me feel worse by screaming at me and telling me that i act like i'm the only one in the world with problems
i've been sick for a week now, had to cancel therapy when i have Another off week from it next week. i'm also due for my period in a couple days which means i get the double whammy if the flu doesn't pass. though at this point it could be an excuse to stay home on christmas
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
i've been sick for a week now, had to cancel therapy when i have Another off week from it next week. i'm also due for my period in a couple days which means i get the double whammy if the flu doesn't pass. though at this point it could be an excuse to stay home on christmas
i am just so tired. the flu spread around my dad's work. he came home sick about 2 weeks ago. i have avoided being in the same room as him this entire time and kept sanitizing any shared spaces. i still caught it anyway despite also getting vaccinated this fall
December 18, 2025 at 11:58 PM
i am just so tired. the flu spread around my dad's work. he came home sick about 2 weeks ago. i have avoided being in the same room as him this entire time and kept sanitizing any shared spaces. i still caught it anyway despite also getting vaccinated this fall
for now i've gotta just keep focusing on remaining as stable as possible even if it feels like my life is still falling apart at the same time
December 8, 2025 at 2:43 AM
for now i've gotta just keep focusing on remaining as stable as possible even if it feels like my life is still falling apart at the same time
i'm still not sure if i'm ever gonna feel up to truly existing here again though, i don't want that discomfort over being disliked and not fitting in anywhere to keep haunting me and that's unfortunately all social media tends to do for me in recent years
December 8, 2025 at 2:43 AM
i'm still not sure if i'm ever gonna feel up to truly existing here again though, i don't want that discomfort over being disliked and not fitting in anywhere to keep haunting me and that's unfortunately all social media tends to do for me in recent years
a lot of things still fucking suck and my thoughts from 2ish weeks ago are very much still there but i'm not quite spiraling out of control constantly the way i was at that point
December 8, 2025 at 2:43 AM
a lot of things still fucking suck and my thoughts from 2ish weeks ago are very much still there but i'm not quite spiraling out of control constantly the way i was at that point
doubt anyone will be hearing anything from me again anytime soon, its apparently just still safer if i isolate
November 25, 2025 at 2:40 AM
doubt anyone will be hearing anything from me again anytime soon, its apparently just still safer if i isolate
as of now i just think i'll only really come back if i find a way to truly rebrand but that's still not viable with the risk of game spoilers being a thing so idk. i'll figure something out ig
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
as of now i just think i'll only really come back if i find a way to truly rebrand but that's still not viable with the risk of game spoilers being a thing so idk. i'll figure something out ig
also should throw it out there that i don't blame anyone for this bc im always the one saying i cant handle genuine friendship rn so why Would anyone want to engage with someone like that
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
also should throw it out there that i don't blame anyone for this bc im always the one saying i cant handle genuine friendship rn so why Would anyone want to engage with someone like that
posting this all while i know nobody is even around is probably also just really stupid and like im self sabotaging trying to validate my negative thoughts but. so be it lol
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
posting this all while i know nobody is even around is probably also just really stupid and like im self sabotaging trying to validate my negative thoughts but. so be it lol
my sense of self worth is also in the gutter at this point and being here like this while im genuinely convinced that nobody in my life actually likes me is just doing more harm than good i think
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
my sense of self worth is also in the gutter at this point and being here like this while im genuinely convinced that nobody in my life actually likes me is just doing more harm than good i think
i still don't know what to do bc i have some bizarre attachment to this account but it also still just makes me miserable sitting in my own corner watching everyone else interact with each other
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
i still don't know what to do bc i have some bizarre attachment to this account but it also still just makes me miserable sitting in my own corner watching everyone else interact with each other
i think the moment i dropped enst i lost any shot of connecting here, or maybe i'm just the problem idek at this point
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
i think the moment i dropped enst i lost any shot of connecting here, or maybe i'm just the problem idek at this point
ik i vent a lot but even when i try to talk about things i Like right now it goes nowhere because my like. 5 whole followers don't care about those interests anyway. and obviously nobody wants to deal with the alternative of me Only using this account for venting
November 24, 2025 at 3:46 PM
ik i vent a lot but even when i try to talk about things i Like right now it goes nowhere because my like. 5 whole followers don't care about those interests anyway. and obviously nobody wants to deal with the alternative of me Only using this account for venting
it's hard though bc i am So prone to being a lurker bc of anxiety. so when i find the courage to actually try to be involved and Still get ignored it's just really discouraging and confirms my feelings that im worthless to people
November 23, 2025 at 10:49 PM
it's hard though bc i am So prone to being a lurker bc of anxiety. so when i find the courage to actually try to be involved and Still get ignored it's just really discouraging and confirms my feelings that im worthless to people
im on track to spiraling back toward thinking i dont belong on the internet bc nobody will ever care or wanna hear from me lmao
November 23, 2025 at 10:49 PM
im on track to spiraling back toward thinking i dont belong on the internet bc nobody will ever care or wanna hear from me lmao