And my favorite thing to do to hit order minimums to not have to pay shipping fees? Is find new seasonings to try (after failing to have found new snacks or other things to try).

At least I'll never have flavorless food? haha

I love the compassion the child has, but hell. A kid shouldn't have to think something like that.

So I feel like a failure on top of all of this bullshit.

(Only reason kid even knows is because I broke down earlier to my partner and they decided to investigate where we were lol)

Annnd also I have a ko-fi.
I might reignite my membership once I can figure out what rewards I can offer, but right now it's just a very rudimentary monthly membership with not much in return aside from gratitude at this point.

ko-fi.com/figmentpudding

I don't know if I'll be able to do markets next year. If I had to guess, based on what I know right now, it's a hard no.
So my website shop might become my sole source of income and hey, that's terrifying.

And yes. I have changed my resume and cover letter so many times to fit the current hiring things. I'm still getting absolutely nothing.

Go to college? All of the programs I've been interested in have been removed from online courses. I can't exactly move to go to college considering I have a kid.

So I would literally have to force all three of us to get less sleep and skip dinner, for $93 a month.

That's right.

-Ninety three dollars a month.-

I have food allergies and cannot buy the cheapest shit available. Nor can I just rock up to food pantries.

This is just not worth it.

Why can't I? I don't drive. My partner, who is my ride (AND the ONLY other childcare person for our kid!!) works thirds.

And our kid does online school on ADHD brain hours (so thirds!), as it works best for them.

So uhh, I don't have the ability to do work/volunteering during "normal" hours.

And even if somehow I'm not qualified for exemption?

I've been looking for a job for 10+ years. Thousands upon thousands of application. TWO interviews.

Needless to say, getting a job is near impossible. Nor can I do volunteer work for 20hrs a week.