They posted out of order 🙄

Anyways I'm halfway through the editing, and it should go by pretty quickly from here. I will be open for beta readers soon if you're into that.

Listening? "Reading." Whatever.

It's important to understand that I have severe anxiety and am not entirely mentally sound as a result, so there are definitely some things I could have misunderstood here and there. However, I don't believe I'm wrong about the situation as a whole, and that is my point at the end of this.

So if you have anything in your thoughts that wish ill upon her, I ask you to please change it to just wish that she will soon let me be and I can resume my activities on my blog. Thank you.

For anyone that read through this, assuming you're not in the fandom and have no idea who this is: I don't care if she gets in trouble for her actions. I don't care for people to discover this and abandon her. I just want her to leave me alone and we can both move on from each other.

I'm aware this sounds like the ramblings of a schizophrenic, but I will stand by the fact that I know what I've seen and what I've experienced. I told myself that one day in the future, when Ivlia had grown a ilttle, that I might unblock her and resume being her fan. But now, that will never happen.

(There is something I just realized I forgot to add, and it's that it wasn't just my closest mutuals that I saw overly-friendly comments from her on their posts. There were others not even remotely close to her circle or interests that she had seemingly tried to befriend.)

Genuinely, I never wanted to "expose" Ivlia because I thought she was just being irresponsible. I never once thought she was truly a groomer or anything like that. But this behaviour has gotten on my last nerves and I'm sick of it.

But now that she's made friends with everyone, my hands are tied.

I have had a lot going on in my real life, and knowing that she is constantly stalking my blog and trying to tear what could have been my friends away from me made me hit a breaking point, and I had a mental breakdown I have since deleted and replaced with the "callout" post.

from being paranoid about how people viewed her posts to calling be "parasocial" and "obsessive" for blocking her seemingly out of nowhere. She accused me of copying her once through some mental gymnastics, and has even recently "responded" to my post "calling her out".

As my vent implies, I noticed several vagueposts from her that were made not that long after mine (I could double check the times and dates, though, unfortunately, since her recent misandry drama, she has since deleted all her posts, so I cannot provide any proof on this any longer.) +

I'm not sure how to articulate all of this still, so this is a rant that I sent to a close friend just a few days ago. There are admittedly a few incorrect details, such as what Ivlia changed her priv blog bio description to. (I had gone back to make sure I did indeed block it and saw the change.)

So I made peace with keeping my distance from those moots and interacted with them the best I could.

But when it continued to be a problem, I admittedly broke my promise of not checking her blog and I finally took a peak at it.

Unfortunately, that didn't stop the issue when I realized I could no longer get close to those people without having to confront her. And I thought to myself, that I didn't want to start drama and rip their friend away from them. (I was still in a degree of denial about the above instances.)

She suddenly gained interests I didn't remember her having before (from what I could tell at the time) and was specifically garnering attention from these specific people, so much so that I had to block her @ and her name and mispelling of it so I would stop seeing her.

But at some point, I tried to talk myself into accepting that I shouldn't lament someone who would speak with minors in such a way.

Eventually, I started to notice something odd. The people I was starting to become close to and form friendships with were talking very frequently with Ivlia.

However, apparently, she had other plans for this.

I made many vague posts about her, but tried to keep anything distinguishing about her out of my posts so I wouldn't start drama, as the fandom had just gone through plenty of it. Most of them at first were lamenting about how I looked up to her.

I had a hunch she would check mine, so I made a post explaining why I blocked her so she wouldn't be left wondering, but obviously I was still frustrated and disgusted by her behaviour.

Truthfully, I didn't check back for a response in kind. I didn't care. I wanted to move on.

Fast forward to the future, someone tags my new blog in a post, and I would later find out that Ivlia found out about me and blocked me back.

Later, the Twitter ban would be lifted and allow everyone to see people's blogs even if they blocked us.