Pretty sure everyone is better than me and they know it and they hate me for it. Sometimes I just lie low so I won’t be exposed for my weaknesses and attacked. It’s a scary world.

Went out for my birthday yesterday, despite some intrusive wobbles! It feels like training a muscle sometimes, I’m glad I did it! #ocd

I’m hoping this account will also document good things that happened. Maybe facing a fear without the dread that this will be burnt into my list of “offences”; but it should be a good thing that I even tried. Well, in an ideal world it would be… #ocd

The scariest thing about OCD is that it controls your past, present and future. The past comes in timehops about the things you may or may not have done, the present fears messing things up in the moment and the future is fear that the present moment will become a time hop. How do I live like this?

Went to an event for the first time by myself… this year, I think. Got hit several times by intrusive thoughts and I’m still ruminating over a conversation I had with someone about the clumsiness of my language and possibly offending people. Touching grass is scary #ocd