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October Scream @octoberscream.bsky.social · 2d
I feel like I have to lay all this out here after the last couple of days. Whether others saw my spiral live or not, it still left me feeling like there was shit I never said. (1/2)
When you're autistic and have severe social anxiety it can be difficult to know how to talk with people. When your interpretations of how to act around people are all based around past trauma it can only hurt yourself more than when the original incident(s) occured. For the last four days I had been waking up feeling empty inside. When I did feel emotions it was only negativity. I cried 3-6 times per day. Despite finally finishing trade school, despite getting help to come up and see my family and friends for Christmas, everything that I had succeeded with in the past, it all just didn't matter anymore. I had disabled my FA and Bsky accounts. I unfriended people and left a lot of servers on Discord. Not only did I feel like nothing mattered anymore, I felt that I didn't matter to anyone else. For the last year I have felt like I had nothing I can bring anymore. It felt as if no one wanted to see me on VRChat. Not only that - my friends were all splitting into different servers, some friends have decided that I'm too much baggage and left me alone, and I've felt a massive disconnection from the furry community due to not being able to afford comms. The stress of real life made it hard to want to go online and see others showing off all the things they've gotten when I'm barely scraping money for essentials. There were a lot of moments I just couldn't feel anything when someone showed off yet another commission, I even grew envious of the gift art and comms my boyfriend was receiving. I didn't have many friends that I felt I could talk to because some of them were asking to be left alone while dealing with their own shit or just as much of an emotional wreck as I am. I started trying to deal with issues myself, hoping I could become better for others. All the while I was unaware of how much every little thing would start to hurt me after doing that. Before I had my boyfriend to help me collect my thoughts, for the last decade I've tried my hardest to keep myself happy. My family didn't really ever know what I did online outside of rhythm games and FGC. Before I attempted college I did not have many peers to go to anymore due to finishing high school online pre-Zoom/COVID era. There were many downs before then from Kindergarten all the way up until I started to attend community college; from teachers refusing to follow education assistance plans causing me to swap elementary schools each grade to being called homosexual derogatories by people I once saw as friends. Past college I had to deal with harassment from artists, cheating cliques at out-of-state FGC tournaments, and other community bullies wherever I was. Every time it felt like me vs the world as I would have to take the blows at face value with what little social understanding I had. Every bad social interaction where I had to defend myself shaped how I would handle every negative interaction in the future; if I was being harassed or attacked I had to fight by myself while the others had peers backing them up. The past two months have only been one chapter of this horrendous year. Right after I had spent weeks recovering post-op and feeling closer to being fully self-capable my shoulder had decided to spasm. I was back to being incapable but this time down my dominant arm. I was previously looking forward to getting to play games with friends again because I couldn't comfortably sit down at my desk for long due to the surgery, but after the shoulder pain started those thoughts quickly faded away and instantly got covered in despair. I was so close to being ready to do something again and now I couldn't do even more of the things I liked. I didn't feel like I could reach out to my friends and just chat with them because for the last five years I've led myself to believe that I have to be happy before I'm allowed to be around my friends. I didn't want to step on people's toes for "being too sad" yet again. I didn't want to bring up my own issues with friends or peers because I didn't want to scare away what little I had left. Before I even had my surgery scheduled I was still living with the anxiety and sadness of not feeling like I can start a conversation anymore, or ask someone if they would just want to hangout and vibe. I was led to believe that I didn't deserve their time because my negativity was radiating even when I wasn't venting. I tried talking inside servers again after my surgery, I also tried talking with friends again over DMs, but nothing I did felt right. It felt like the responses I would receive back were being reduced. I would be trying to do my own thing while I waited, but my anxiety would take over and I would just wonder when someone would reply back or send anything but porn. It became wondering when someone would come and check on me as the weeks without messages turned into a month, then months. I was asking myself what people saw in me; what do I bring to friendships; how can I get the confidence to keep giving and receiving nothing back? It became a mountain of envy and jealousy as I saw friends and peers doing things with each other still or talking with my boyfriend and leaving me aside while I rotted away in bed, growing further as I saw friends who once made excuses on why they can't hangout now have all the availability in the world for everyone else. What could I have even asked to do when I couldn't sit at my PC for more than 30 minutes or use my bad arm for anything? What do I have that I can discuss about that isn't just the world and others kicking dirt into my face? How do I make friends again?
octoberscream.bsky.social
Shiny haul from yesterday. I can finally die happy now that I've found some shiny Sprigatito TwT
December 7, 2025 at 6:56 PM
octoberscream.bsky.social
I feel like I have to lay all this out here after the last couple of days. Whether others saw my spiral live or not, it still left me feeling like there was shit I never said. (1/2)
When you're autistic and have severe social anxiety it can be difficult to know how to talk with people. When your interpretations of how to act around people are all based around past trauma it can only hurt yourself more than when the original incident(s) occured. For the last four days I had been waking up feeling empty inside. When I did feel emotions it was only negativity. I cried 3-6 times per day. Despite finally finishing trade school, despite getting help to come up and see my family and friends for Christmas, everything that I had succeeded with in the past, it all just didn't matter anymore. I had disabled my FA and Bsky accounts. I unfriended people and left a lot of servers on Discord. Not only did I feel like nothing mattered anymore, I felt that I didn't matter to anyone else. For the last year I have felt like I had nothing I can bring anymore. It felt as if no one wanted to see me on VRChat. Not only that - my friends were all splitting into different servers, some friends have decided that I'm too much baggage and left me alone, and I've felt a massive disconnection from the furry community due to not being able to afford comms. The stress of real life made it hard to want to go online and see others showing off all the things they've gotten when I'm barely scraping money for essentials. There were a lot of moments I just couldn't feel anything when someone showed off yet another commission, I even grew envious of the gift art and comms my boyfriend was receiving. I didn't have many friends that I felt I could talk to because some of them were asking to be left alone while dealing with their own shit or just as much of an emotional wreck as I am. I started trying to deal with issues myself, hoping I could become better for others. All the while I was unaware of how much every little thing would start to hurt me after doing that. Before I had my boyfriend to help me collect my thoughts, for the last decade I've tried my hardest to keep myself happy. My family didn't really ever know what I did online outside of rhythm games and FGC. Before I attempted college I did not have many peers to go to anymore due to finishing high school online pre-Zoom/COVID era. There were many downs before then from Kindergarten all the way up until I started to attend community college; from teachers refusing to follow education assistance plans causing me to swap elementary schools each grade to being called homosexual derogatories by people I once saw as friends. Past college I had to deal with harassment from artists, cheating cliques at out-of-state FGC tournaments, and other community bullies wherever I was. Every time it felt like me vs the world as I would have to take the blows at face value with what little social understanding I had. Every bad social interaction where I had to defend myself shaped how I would handle every negative interaction in the future; if I was being harassed or attacked I had to fight by myself while the others had peers backing them up. The past two months have only been one chapter of this horrendous year. Right after I had spent weeks recovering post-op and feeling closer to being fully self-capable my shoulder had decided to spasm. I was back to being incapable but this time down my dominant arm. I was previously looking forward to getting to play games with friends again because I couldn't comfortably sit down at my desk for long due to the surgery, but after the shoulder pain started those thoughts quickly faded away and instantly got covered in despair. I was so close to being ready to do something again and now I couldn't do even more of the things I liked. I didn't feel like I could reach out to my friends and just chat with them because for the last five years I've led myself to believe that I have to be happy before I'm allowed to be around my friends. I didn't want to step on people's toes for "being too sad" yet again. I didn't want to bring up my own issues with friends or peers because I didn't want to scare away what little I had left. Before I even had my surgery scheduled I was still living with the anxiety and sadness of not feeling like I can start a conversation anymore, or ask someone if they would just want to hangout and vibe. I was led to believe that I didn't deserve their time because my negativity was radiating even when I wasn't venting. I tried talking inside servers again after my surgery, I also tried talking with friends again over DMs, but nothing I did felt right. It felt like the responses I would receive back were being reduced. I would be trying to do my own thing while I waited, but my anxiety would take over and I would just wonder when someone would reply back or send anything but porn. It became wondering when someone would come and check on me as the weeks without messages turned into a month, then months. I was asking myself what people saw in me; what do I bring to friendships; how can I get the confidence to keep giving and receiving nothing back? It became a mountain of envy and jealousy as I saw friends and peers doing things with each other still or talking with my boyfriend and leaving me aside while I rotted away in bed, growing further as I saw friends who once made excuses on why they can't hangout now have all the availability in the world for everyone else. What could I have even asked to do when I couldn't sit at my PC for more than 30 minutes or use my bad arm for anything? What do I have that I can discuss about that isn't just the world and others kicking dirt into my face? How do I make friends again?
December 5, 2025 at 11:51 PM
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bokosho.bsky.social
#BokoshoArt

Funny tanuki with boobs wearing a kimono... so pretty!

Fanart for @kkoart.bsky.social

#artnsfw #furry #furryart #furrynsfw #anthro #anthroart #anthronsfw #nsfw #hyperboobs #hyperbreasts #hyper #fanart
November 30, 2025 at 12:07 PM
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gravityinbound.bsky.social
Monday surprised me with a very... spicy birthday gift. Well you can't say she she goes small when it comes to presents~

#gravityinboundart #inflation
Grav being blown by Monday the Lovander, who is inflated to a massive blimp size.
November 29, 2025 at 11:47 PM
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bornconfusedart.bsky.social
Navel November Day 19: “Fire”

Fire container? Fire container.

(NN prompt by @/dullpointdraws.bsky.social)
November 20, 2025 at 12:44 AM
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bornconfusedart.bsky.social
Navel November Day 28: “Stick”

A continuation of #19: “Fire”
Having now been filled up with fire, Saffron wastes no time scratching that one itch deep inside…

(NN prompt by @/dullpointdraws.bsky.social)
November 29, 2025 at 3:00 AM
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ruffidote.bsky.social
this is what heavy machinery does to a woman
November 29, 2025 at 12:34 AM
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theycallhimcake.bsky.social
lemme get uhhhhhhhhhhhhh
November 29, 2025 at 12:05 AM
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mirrorg.bsky.social
A comm for Ozzy the Squirrel over on FA, and a great PSA opportunity for you all:

if you're going up, make sure you have a buddy there on valve duty...
November 28, 2025 at 3:40 PM
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berseepon.bsky.social
Fat cat🍖
November 20, 2025 at 9:19 PM
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berseepon.bsky.social
🍖
November 27, 2025 at 9:17 AM
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ocaritna.bsky.social
Late colored sketches for my patron over at patreon! Thank you so much! (also trying chubby femboy for the first time on the 3rd pic)
In order posted :
- AlBaron
- Askia
- FlayneX
Continue below :
September 3, 2025 at 7:17 PM
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tuzzleton.bsky.social
Where the heck did Jazz go? We were both supposed to help with this parade!

Guess I'll just tug this squeaking blimp around and see if I can spot her.

#nsfw #inflation

🦎 🎈
An underneath view of Jazz, whom is inflated like a parade blimp and being pulled along by tethers on her wrists, ankles, and tail. Her clothes are ripping off, revealing her breasts and straining panties. Her face shows a big toothy Cheshire-like grin, similar to a parade blimp, but her embarrassed eyes hint it may be forced by the puffing.
November 27, 2025 at 3:15 PM
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mabocorescant.bsky.social
Happy Thanksgiving everybody! I don't have any new art for it but I've done so many parade balloons in the past, it's one of my favorite parts of the holiday! I hope you all have a wonderful time and I can't express how thankful I am for everybody who supports and enjoys my work in any capacity!
November 27, 2025 at 5:06 PM
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shinfox.bsky.social
HAPPY THANKSGIVING have a blimp for your amusement~
November 28, 2025 at 4:14 AM
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terito.bsky.social
hehe yeah that be me
September 26, 2025 at 4:26 PM
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addde.bsky.social
Remember that Glac that blew up at the last thanksgiving? well she regenerated and became a perma, she also got a girlfriend! what a happy ending uwu.
November 27, 2025 at 9:33 PM
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tammytigress.bsky.social
Wtf I don't even celebrate thanksgiving, why are you using me for the parade?!

Lovely art by @tuzzleton.bsky.social 🥰💙
November 27, 2025 at 7:40 PM
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incidental.bsky.social
Qismet balloon
Shiny Mesprit gal gettin' orbed
November 27, 2025 at 10:34 PM
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winguthings.com
cw: inflation

Looks like Gyre had something weird up his sleeve to surprise Demitri with...! Commission for @squishlofe.bsky.social!
November 28, 2025 at 4:59 AM
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qweave.bsky.social
okay the parade was cool and so but im ready to be uhhhh deflated now. right? right? where's everyone going?

by @bootfromtv.bsky.social
November 28, 2025 at 3:10 AM
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sharkbubble.bsky.social
another com for @grandlumpus.bsky.social

which also happens to be on their bday!
November 27, 2025 at 7:24 PM
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gravityinbound.bsky.social
Large ice queen for you all~

#gravityinboundart
A voluptuous Mega Froslass woman clad in a long, white dress that's cut at the top to expose the shoulders and cleavage.
November 15, 2025 at 11:56 PM
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gravityinbound.bsky.social
I didn't mean for it, but these three pics of Kiki go together as a fitting inflation sequence!

Also I should draw Kiki more.

#gravityinboundart #inflation
Kiki the anthro Mawile crossing her arms and sneering at her second mouth. She is muttering "Oh behave..." while the other mouth blows a raspberry. Kiki the Mawile suddenly alarmed as her second mouth has chomped on a helium tank, causing Kiki to inflate like a balloon. Kiki is panicked while saying "Wh-where did you even find that thing?! Spit it out now!!" Kiki the Mawile fully inflated into a large balloon, floating idly above the city. She is blushing while giving an unamused expression while the second mouth looks content.
November 23, 2025 at 2:53 AM
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dayty.bsky.social
Skeb納品しました！

でっかいザングースさん！
skeb.jp/@Day_Ty/work...
October 23, 2025 at 7:30 PM