Like I just looked through that evidence and IT IS THERE, there is no way I'm imagining it now, yet I still fail to recognize it as real, I dont know how to explain it and I dont think I'm making any sense here but its eerie and uncomfortable and scary as fuck to live like this every day

I also doubt myself a lot in this, like. I have physical evidence of one instance of this "memories of dreams" actually happening and even then I still *feel it* as a dream and remember it with the uncertainty and drowsiness of dreams. Like it happened to someone else and im imagining it all

I said that I didnt cosplay him bc I thought I would ruin him if I did and the cosplayer told me I should cosplay Kanda cause I would rock him and he suits me and I nearly cried it made me so happyyyyyy 😭 😭