I feel like this Christmas is the strangest one in several years, because even though there have been people missing from my family's table since I was about 14 (whether due to family feuds or deaths), I feel like now, at 24, is when it feels the worst, because on the 26th it will be a year

Well, I was right. In my birthday nobody did things like that, they gave me the congratulations oc, but.. idk, I would like to be important enough to someone so that they do things like that to me

The fact that my mother noticed that these days I was listless and without spirit... I mean.. idk why I feel like this, but I don’t have energy for nothing. I just hope I have a little more energy for my birthday party from Sunday

Today it’s a mutuals twitter birthday and I’m seeing everyone congratulating her and making text for that and saying you should congratulate her and things like that and I’m so sure no one would that for my birthday… it’s pretty sad actually.. 🫠

I’m starting to feel like people in twitter is ignoring me or just responding to the things I say to them, maybe it’s just my head, but I feel like they don’t really want yo talk to me anymore and it’s horrible because I really like them and interact with them. And if this is not just in my head..

The next week it’s my birthday and for the first time I’m not feeling it.. like idk, it’s like I don’t want to be in that day anymore.. I used to love my birthday but lately I just… feel it like another day and feels horrible

I would like so much having friend who I can talk all the time and talk about my shit and tell them how I feel without think I'm being annoying or something like that. Idk man, I just wanna feel like I’m important for someone