so much of it in my writing hinges on "we have to do if right now i can't help myself" i think it's so romantic and cute like aww yeah buddy you really can't help it huh (i say to the nasty bloodlusting warrior of light pushing 30)

AND MAYBE THEY DO GET CAUGHT!! SO WHAT!!!

tuya earned that fantasia but hex is an asshole so he's very very very jealous for a very long time. (spoiler: when HE gets a fantasia decades later, he's so focused on getting cat ears that he really doesn't do many gender affirming changes)

something something angry that your girlfriend has a bigger dick than you something something you know it gives her gender euphoria to call her dick small something something both of you get your pent up gender feelings out with each other

for hex, though, sex is hard and it's stressful. he likes sleeping around but it can be difficult to find partners when you say you're staying fully clothed and not letting them touch you.

dove is also extremely dysphoric but she has a unique experience as a viera, and for other reasons sex does come easier to her when it finally does happen. she's submissive, so relinquishing control is cathartic for her. shes dysphoric because she's been in the same routine for 30 years.

dysphoria is such a mess for me to even think about (intersex & trans, and the identity disorder) so despite its diverse forms across my dysphoric trans ocs, i think all of those manifestations come from me or my feelings in some way.

IM LATE LET ME IN LET ME IN BARK BARK BARK BARK

(know that i did just stop myself from having the rant about how intersex ppl are not inherently trans just like how they're not inherently queer and having those umbrellas/identities pushed on all of us is reductive despite its attempts to be inclusive, we could've been here for 20 posts phew)

this makes a lot more sense for me to "figure out" because with itsuki ive always been a bit confused about why he wouldn't personally identify as trans when i as his writer would describe him as under the trans umbrella. he's just, like, a GNC intersex man who doesn't rlly care about pronouns.

sorry kaigara and sekitan you're both trapped inside the pink thing... but they both are very excited about the prospect of sex in their own bodies, the two of them have no real turmoil abt it because all of that is reserved for the existential horror of not having a physical existence at all...

whereas aquila specifically misses out on any formal sex ed because they're intersex, and they're so uninterested in it as an adult bc they know they're different and it'd just be a whole thing to even try. and teitō goes into sw but it's "just" their job, its not LIBERATING for them specifically.

i've been thinking about this since i answered that qotd about adonis thinking she's attractive, she's just literally her own type, but they have super OCD. its already so hard to be intimate when you have OCD, let alone OCD that revolves around your own body and its state

i just think c'stajha should have an orange pussy SORRY !! SORRY!! AND IMAGINE A CUTE PURPLE TIP PEEKING OUT OF SOMEONE'S FORESKIN !!!!!!!!!!!!! IT'S OBJECTIVELY CUTE !!!!!!!!

ayame's warm pink tones vs her blue pussy, it's CUTE. kaigara ACTUALLY being blue in every capacity, eyes hair tongue AND genitals ?? please it'll fix me