this readjustment is gunna take a bit. aint easy switchin places

he didnt actually im exaggerating for comedic effect. just nice to have the boyf over for holidays hehe :3

AWAWAWAWAAA!!! (⁠●⁠’⁠3⁠)⁠♡⁠(⁠ε⁠`⁠●⁠)

porn is yummy cheese stick treat 🥰

i don't know what will be left of me, this version of me that i am so intimately familiar and comfortable with. i remain in stasis until i find what will bridge the gap between these disparate selves. because for all i know, until that day, my fingers won't even be able to make a single scratch.

this monstrous desire is so tightly woven into my muscles and tendons and bones and veins and nerves and i QUIVER with a need to let it out. i want to dig my nails into my flesh and tear open this seal, to feel what's inside react to freedom like a chemical disaster and just fucking EXPLODE outwards

excuse me
but I just have to
explode

youtu.be/cPgAjvaM2aQ

unfortunately my brain interprets well meaning messages from my friends as people getting under my skin. i dont really want to be driven paranoid by the unfortunate reality of being perceived by my peers so ill be as off social media as much as i can for a bit