I’m truly crazy studying for a test and getting my drivers license the same month, sometimes I really put myself through the ringer

If someone see this, not worry I will be fine. Yes this is mostly a smut account. I find funny that I am using this account for crazy ravings.

I used to see the better parts of life but now even I am not longer in the abusive home that I grow up, change of topic, I was abused mostly psychologically by my own family members, left high school because of the intense bullying I got.

1/2 honestly I have seen the failure of a human that I am, it makes sense that nobody has ever see me has a partner, I don’t blame others as incels do, I see my own flaws and understand why nobody would choose me.

1/2 one thing about my life is the missing “human connection”. Never had a special other, never had a kiss or sexual relation's, being truly honest at my age it doesn’t matter anymore. This may be the crazy ravings of a lunatic

For some reason venting when nobody is watching is refreshing. I have deal with depression most of my life. Now I am medicated but still in the back of my mind I can hear a voice that tell me that I am useless.

Solitude is a poison, feeling alone like never before. Yes I got a new house and it was a mess during construction but my work gave fruit. Even with that I feel that I haven’t accomplished nothing.